Thomai, me dyshimin e tij, v\u00ebrteton Ngjalljen e Zotit<\/p>\n
\u201cLum ata q\u00eb nukpan\u00eb dhe besuan\u201d<\/p>\n
Nj\u00eb dyshim tjet\u00ebr, por edhe nj\u00eb v\u00ebrtetim tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebr Ngjalljen e Zotit, \u00ebsht\u00eb historia e apostull Thomait, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn, nga Ungjillor\u00ebt, e tregon vet\u00ebm sh\u00ebn Joani. Sipas ekonomis\u00eb hyjnore, Thomai nuk ishte midis Apostujve, gjat\u00eb shfaqjes s\u00eb par\u00eb p\u00ebrpara tyre t\u00eb Zotit q\u00eb u ngjall. I thoshin pra, nx\u00ebn\u00ebsit e tjer\u00eb, Thomait: \u201cPam\u00eb Zotin…\u201d. Por Thomai as besonte, as bindej. Donte prova, dhe madje t\u00eb prekshme; prova n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet shqisa- ve, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet shikimit dhe prekjes, t\u00eb shoh\u00eb me syt\u00eb e tij dhe t\u00eb prek\u00eb me gishtat e tij.<\/p>\n
\u201cS\u2019kam p\u00ebr t\u00eb besuar\u201d, thot\u00eb Thomai, dhe nuk e kupton se, me pretendimin q\u00eb ka dhe si\u00e7 e parashtron k\u00ebt\u00eb gj\u00eb, anulon kushtet e bes\u00ebs. Provat q\u00eb k\u00ebrkon nuk tregojn\u00eb bes\u00eb por dije dhe, madje, shkall\u00ebn m\u00eb t\u00eb ul\u00ebt t\u00eb dijes. Por besa nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb e shqisave dhe as dije mendore e v\u00ebrtetim i logjiksh\u00ebm. M\u00eb konkre- tisht, ata besojn\u00eb n\u00eb ato q\u00eb shohin, sht\u00ebpit\u00eb e tyre, n\u00eb arat e tyre dhe n\u00eb gjith\u00eb kultur\u00ebn tekno- logjike. Besojn\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb prekin duart e tyre, parat\u00eb, arin, veshjet, trupat. Besojn\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb d\u00ebgjojn\u00eb me vesh\u00ebt e tyre, n\u00eb zhurma, radio, violina dhe ve\u00e7an\u00ebrisht n\u00eb l\u00ebvdatat p\u00ebr ta.<\/p>\n
N\u00ebse do t\u00eb gjendej dikush q\u00eb t\u2019u thot\u00eb atyre se, nat\u00ebn, me sy mbyllur, pa drit\u00eb, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet lutjes, shikon Krijuesin e drit\u00ebs, do ta konside- rojn\u00eb se flet p\u00ebr\u00e7art dhe ka temperatur\u00eb. N\u00ebse do t\u00eb gjendej nj\u00eb njeri, q\u00eb t\u2019u thot\u00eb atyre se d\u00eb- gjon, jo me vesh\u00ebt trupor\u00eb, p\u00ebshp\u00ebrimat dhe rrahjet e nd\u00ebrgjegjes s\u00eb tij, e konsiderojn\u00eb t\u00eb marr\u00eb. K\u00ebta pasues t\u00eb jasht\u00ebligjsh\u00ebm t\u00eb Thomait, besojn\u00eb vet\u00ebm n\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb shijojn\u00eb. Shije ndiejn\u00eb vet\u00ebm kur han\u00eb. Shije tjet\u00ebr nuk njohin. P\u00ebr ata, epshet dhe k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsit\u00eb trupore nuk ndahen nga g\u00ebzimi. Ndiejn\u00eb vet\u00ebm me goj\u00eb dhe me trup. N\u00ebse d\u00ebgjojn\u00eb se ka njer\u00ebz q\u00eb ndiejn\u00eb g\u00ebzim, p\u00ebrtej k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsis\u00eb s\u00eb goj\u00ebs dhe trupit, \u00ebsht\u00eb di\u00e7ka e pakuptueshme p\u00ebr ta.<\/p>\n
E megjithat\u00eb, sa t\u00eb varf\u00ebr jan\u00eb k\u00ebta njer\u00ebz, t\u00eb cil\u00ebt kan\u00eb vet\u00ebm vesh\u00ebt, goj\u00ebt dhe trupat e tyre, si dyer t\u00eb vetme hyrjeje n\u00eb shpirtin e tyre. Dhe konkretisht, syt\u00eb l\u00ebndor\u00eb, sado q\u00eb t\u00eb ken\u00eb para dhe prona, kurr\u00eb nuk e ngopin urin\u00eb e shpir- tit t\u00eb tyre. Sepse shpirti \u00ebsht\u00eb i paracaktuar p\u00ebr sip\u00ebrfaqe t\u00eb m\u00ebdha n\u00eb Qiell. Pasuesit e jasht\u00eb- ligjsh\u00ebm t\u00eb Thomait, besojn\u00eb n\u00eb p\u00ebrparimet e kultur\u00ebs teknologjike, n\u00eb mjetet e komunikacio- nit, n\u00eb rehati dhe leht\u00ebsi t\u00eb tjera. E megjithat\u00eb, kultura teknologjike \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo q\u00eb, pasi na rob\u00ebroi me nevojat q\u00eb krijoi, menj\u00ebher\u00eb na shkat\u00ebrroi, sepse p\u00ebrparimit t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj kulture teknologjike, i dedikohen arm\u00ebt e shkat\u00ebrrimit n\u00eb mas\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Besojn\u00eb n\u00eb lavdin\u00eb e vetes s\u00eb tyre. E megji- that\u00eb zhurma m\u00eb e madhe e lavdis\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb ma-<\/p>\n
dhe, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb episod i thjesht\u00eb, nj\u00eb fllusk\u00eb sapuni q\u00eb \u00e7ahet n\u00eb heshtjen e p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb s\u00eb pasvdek- jes. Besojn\u00eb n\u00eb trupin e tyre, sepse vet\u00ebm at\u00eb prekin. E megjithat\u00eb, ky trup kaq m\u00ebkatar dhe kaq i dashur, q\u00eb e prekim, \u00ebsht\u00eb balt\u00eb, e cila nuk ndryshon nga balta q\u00eb ushqehen krimbat e sh\u00ebndosh\u00eb t\u00eb tok\u00ebs. Veshjet e bukura, t\u00eb cilat i shikojn\u00eb, i prekin, besojn\u00eb tek ato, leht\u00eb iu b\u00ebhen t\u00eb r\u00ebndomta. Pasi iu b\u00ebhen t\u00eb zakonshme, iu m\u00ebrziten dhe pasi i kan\u00eb hedhur tej dhe s\u2019kan\u00eb ku t\u00eb besojn\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, p\u00ebrbuzin dhe iu neveritet vet\u00eb jeta e tyre! Dhe rezultati? Vet\u00ebvrasja. Ja varf\u00ebria e shqisave materialiste, kur vet\u00ebm ato e qeverisin njeriun. \u00cbsht\u00eb varf\u00ebri, kot\u00ebsi, neveri, asfiksi, vdekje!<\/p>\n
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Por, \u201clum ata q\u00eb nukpan\u00eb dhe besuan\u201d. Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, autoritet absolut kan\u00eb vet\u00ebm ato t\u00eb v\u00ebrteta, t\u00eb cilat zbresin q\u00eb lartazi drejt e n\u00eb shpirt, pa kaluar n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet shqisave. Dhe me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb! T\u00eb ndri\u00e7uarit nga Per\u00ebndia jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00eb se njer\u00ebzit m\u00eb t\u00eb ditur. Ata q\u00eb ndiejn\u00eb rrahjet e nd\u00ebrgjegjes s\u00eb tyre, jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb se ata q\u00eb d\u00ebgjojn\u00eb violin\u00eb. Ata q\u00eb kan\u00eb g\u00ebzimin e Krishtit, jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb qet\u00eb se ata q\u00eb shikojn\u00eb p\u00ebrparimet e shkenc\u00ebs. Ata q\u00eb mjaftohen dhe k\u00ebnaqen n\u00eb t\u00eb mirat e tyre t\u00eb pakta materiale dhe gjejn\u00eb qet\u00ebsin\u00eb n\u00eb to, jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb pasur se ata, syri i t\u00eb cil\u00ebve \u00ebsht\u00eb i pangopur nga arritjet. Ata q\u00eb k\u00ebrkojn\u00eb n\u00eb thell\u00ebsit\u00eb e zemr\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre<\/p>\n
dhe gjejn\u00eb mang\u00ebsit\u00eb e tyre, kan\u00eb shpresa m\u00eb t\u00eb shumta ndreqjeje, nga ata q\u00eb mund t\u00eb num\u00eb- rojn\u00eb yjet e qiejve. Por edhe njer\u00ebzit shpres\u00ebtar\u00eb, q\u00eb shikojn\u00eb \u00ebndrra, shfaqje engj\u00ebjsh, Sh\u00ebn Marin\u00eb, Krishtin, duke besuar n\u00eb \u00ebndrra, jan\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb vegj\u00ebl se ata q\u00eb besojn\u00eb n\u00eb Krishtin. Se- pse Zoti ia v\u00ebrteton Thomait: \u201cLum ata q\u00eb nuk pan\u00eb dhe besuan\u201d. Pes\u00eb shqisat jan\u00eb dyer t\u00eb varfra, q\u00eb, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet tyre, t\u00eb arrij\u00eb t\u00eb ngopet shpirti i madh i njeriut. Kemi nevoj\u00eb p\u00ebr frym\u00eb- zimin q\u00eb lartazi t\u00eb ndri\u00e7imit t\u00eb bes\u00ebs. \u201dLum ata q\u00eb nuk pan\u00eb dhe besuan\u201d.<\/p>\n
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Pas tet\u00eb dit\u00ebsh Krishti hyri p\u00ebrs\u00ebri n\u00eb hierore, n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn m\u00ebnyr\u00eb. Pasi hyri brenda, ftoi Thoman\u00eb q\u00eb ta prek\u00eb. Dhe Thomai thirri: \u201cZoti im dhe Per\u00ebndia im!\u201d Por Krishti menj\u00ebher\u00eb lumuroi ata q\u00eb s\u2019kan\u00eb par\u00eb dhe besojn\u00eb. Mjer\u00eb n\u00ebse shikimi dhe prekja do t\u00eb ishte rruga e vetme q\u00eb t\u00eb arrijm\u00eb tek e v\u00ebrteta dhe Krishti.<\/p>\n
Sigurisht, edhe ato p\u00ebrbejn\u00eb nj\u00eb metod\u00eb k\u00ebrkimi t\u00eb s\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebs. Krishti dhe Kisha e Tij nuk i hedhin posht\u00eb k\u00ebto, p\u00ebrderisa edhe vet\u00eb Krishti pranoi ta shoh\u00eb dhe ta prek\u00eb Thomai.<\/p>\n
Por nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb e mundur dhe e sigurt metoda e t\u00eb parit. Prekim \u00e7far\u00eb shikojm\u00eb. Ekzistojn\u00eb edhe aq gj\u00ebra t\u00eb tjera, t\u00eb cilat nuk i shikojm\u00eb dhe nuk i prekim. Edhe n\u00eb ambientin p\u00ebrreth, pranojm\u00eb teorema dhe doktrina, pa mundur t\u2019i v\u00ebrtetojm\u00eb. Per\u00ebndia, p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsia, shpirti yn\u00eb, jan\u00eb jasht\u00eb kontrollit t\u00eb shqisave tona.<\/p>\n
Shenjtor\u00ebt ec\u00ebn dhe ecin n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet bes\u00ebs. \u201cThur\u00ebn goj\u00eb luan\u00ebsh, ngjall\u00ebn t\u00eb vdekur, b\u00ebn\u00eb \u00e7udira dhe shenja me t\u00eb cilat ndry- shuan bot\u00ebn.\u201d Shenjtori \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb realitet i padyshuesh\u00ebm. Besa e drejton njeriun p\u00ebrtej s\u00eb natyrshmes, n\u00eb t\u00eb mbinatyrshmen. Atje e fiton plot\u00ebsisht njeriu, t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn dhe Krishtin. Atje aktivizohet e gjith\u00eb ekzistenca jon\u00eb. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb realitet synojn\u00eb edhe vargjet e poetit t\u00eb krishter\u00eb, Jorgo Dhrosinit:<\/p>\n
Nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb besim kur pret n\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje t\u00eb shfaqen yje dhe me k\u00ebng\u00ebn e k\u00ebndesit agimi i kuq\u00ebrremt\u00eb t\u00eb arrij\u00eb. Sado e palogjikshme dhe e rreme n\u00eb mendjen t\u00ebnde, besimi pret diellin n\u00eb mesnat\u00eb dhe drit\u00ebn e yjeve n\u00eb mesdit\u00eb.<\/p>\n
Prandaj, le t\u00eb lusim Krishtin, si Apostujt, t\u00eb na e shtoj\u00eb bes\u00ebn, p\u00ebr t\u00eb kuptuar plot\u00ebsisht fjal\u00ebt e tij: \u201cLum ata q\u00eb nukpan\u00eb dhe besuan\u201d.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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