Sot \u00ebsht\u00eb nisja e shp\u00ebtimit ton\u00eb dhe shfaqja e<\/p>\n
vitit 1881. N\u00eb dit\u00ebn e vdekjes, n\u00eb or\u00ebn
\nshtat\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebngjesit, duke e parandjer\u00eb
\nfundin e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tip i k\u00ebrkoi bashk\u00eb-
\nshortes Ana Grigoriera, q\u00eb t’i lexonte
\ndi\u00e7ka nga Ungjilli.
\nNga ai Ungjill q\u00eb ia kishin dhuruar
\nn\u00eb Tobalsk, n\u00eb \u00e7astin kur u nis p\u00ebr n\u00eb
\ninternim (Ky Ungjill sot gjendet n\u00eb
\nBibliotek\u00ebn “Lenin” t\u00eb Mosk\u00ebs).
\nGruaja q\u00eb i dhuroi Ungjillin quhej Na\u00ad
\ntalia Fonvizina. Ungjilli ishte i vetmi
\nlib\u00ebr q\u00eb lejohej t\u00eb lexonte ndokush gja-
\nt\u00eb internimit. Studimi i tij pati r\u00ebnd\u00ebsi
\nt\u00eb madhe n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e Dostojevskit.
\nth\u00ebni urat\u00ebn e himnit<\/p>\n
shok\u00ebt e tij, si dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb par\u00eb p\u00ebr her\u00ebn
\ne fundit p\u00ebrreth. Dhe kur i ngel\u00ebn edhe
\nrreth dy minuta koh\u00eb, i ve\u00e7oi q\u00eb t\u00eb ku-
\njtonte p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb fundit vehten e tij, t\u00eb
\nshkuar\u00ebn e tij. Pop fatmir\u00ebsisht n\u00eb at\u00eb
\n\u00e7ast, nd\u00ebrsa binin timban\u00ebt dhe ai
\npriste t\u00eb d\u00ebgjonte urdh\u00ebrin “Zjarr”
\nmb\u00ebrriti nj\u00eb makin\u00eb, nga e cila zbret
\nnj\u00eb oficer me nj\u00eb let\u00ebr n\u00eb dor\u00eb, n\u00eb t\u00eb
\ncil\u00ebn i falej jeta dhe i ndryshohej lloji i
\nd\u00ebnimit, nga d\u00ebnim me vdekje, n\u00eb
\nkat\u00ebr vjet internim n\u00eb Siberi.
\nK\u00ebshtu, pra e kthyea^ p\u00ebrs\u00ebri n\u00eb
\nk\u00ebshtjell\u00ebn Petropavlosk, nga ku e
\nG\u00ebzohu, o hir\u00ebplote; Zoti \u00ebsht\u00eb bashk\u00eb me ty; e<\/p>\n
pas internimit jan\u00eb t\u00eb frym\u00ebzuara nga
\nm\u00ebsimdh\u00ebnia e Ungjillit; nga
\np\u00ebrul\u00ebsia dhe durimi. Praz \u00e7asti kur
\nNatalia Fonvizina i dhuroi
\nDostojevskit Ungjillin, do t\u00eb ishte
\nven dim tar p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn e tij t\u00eb
\nm\u00ebvon\u00ebshme. N\u00eb gjith\u00eb ato vite q\u00eb
\nq\u00ebndroi i mbyllur n\u00eb internim, shum\u00eb
\nher\u00eb ju dha rasti q\u00eb t\u00eb analizonte jet\u00ebn
\ne tij.
\n…N\u00eb m\u00ebngjesin e 22 dhjetorit 1849
\nDostojevskin e \u00e7uan p\u00ebr ta ekzekutu-
\nar n\u00eb Sheshin Semionofski, n\u00eb Petru-
\npoli. Pik\u00ebrisht, n\u00eb \u00e7astin q\u00eb po i le-
\nxonin vendimin gjyq\u00ebsor, instikti-
\nvisht n\u00eb m\u00ebndjen e tij kujtonte gjith\u00eb
\njet\u00ebn e shkuar. U ekzekutuan tre t\u00eb
\npar\u00ebt. Ai ndodhej n\u00eb treshen e
\nm\u00ebpasshme. I kishin ngelur vet\u00ebm
\npes\u00eb minuta. Nga k\u00ebto pes\u00eb minuta
\nkishin marr\u00eb n\u00eb at\u00eb m\u00ebngjes. Tashm\u00eb i
\nmbyllur brenda, pas nj\u00eb sprove t\u00eb till\u00eb
\ndo fi jepej s\u00ebrish rasti p\u00ebr t\u00eb menduar
\np\u00ebrs\u00ebri t\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn e tij. Tani nuk do t\u00eb
\nket\u00eb m\u00eb vet\u00ebm disa minuta t\u00eb vetme,
\npor dit\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra.
\nPik\u00ebrisht, n\u00eb at\u00eb nat\u00eb i shkruan
\nv\u00ebllait t\u00eb tij:
\n“Kur shoh pas n\u00eb t\u00eb kaluar\u00ebn dhe
\nmendoj se sa koh\u00eb humba me kot\u00ebsira,
\nme gabime; kur mendoj se si e humba
\nkoh\u00ebn time, pa ditur si t\u00eb jetoj, pa
\nmundur t\u00eb \u00e7moj koh\u00ebn; kur mendoj se
\nm\u00ebkatova ndaj vehtes time dhe n\u00eb
\nshpirtin tim, at\u00ebher\u00eb zemra ime r\u00eb-
\nnkon. Jeta, v\u00ebllai im, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb dhurat\u00eb,
\njeta \u00ebsht\u00eb lumturi. \u00c7do minut\u00eb duhet
\nt\u00eb jet\u00eb nj\u00eb shekull lumturie. Tani, duke
\nnd\u00ebrruar m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn e jetes\u00ebs, rilindem
\nn\u00eb nj\u00eb njeri t\u00eb ri.”
\n(vijon n\u00eb faqen 8)<\/p>\n
Pik\u00ebrisht, p\u00ebr’njeriun e ri,
\nbashk\u00eb me shpres\u00ebn e tij p\u00ebr nj\u00eb
\njet\u00eb t\u00eb re, do t\u00eb bisedonte me v\u00eb-
\nllan\u00eb e tij, kur e lejuan ta shihte
\nnat\u00ebn, kur do t\u00eb nisej p\u00ebr n\u00eb
\nSiberi. Dhe p\u00ebrs\u00ebri, kur do t\u00eb
\ngjendej i mbyllur n\u00eb burgun e
\nOmskit, p\u00ebrpara nj\u00eb jete t\u00eb re,
\nmendja e tij kthehej shpesh n\u00eb
\njet\u00ebn e tij t\u00eb kaluar. Ai shkruan:
\n“Bekoj fatin q\u00eb m\u00eb d\u00ebrgoi n\u00eb ve-
\ntmi, pa t\u00eb cil\u00ebn nuk do t\u00eb mu-
\nndja t\u00eb gjykoja vehten time dhe
\nt\u00eb b\u00ebja nj\u00eb analiz\u00eb kaq t\u00eb rrept\u00eb
\nt\u00eb jet\u00ebs sime.”
\nE d\u00ebrguan n\u00eb Siberi, ku
\nbashk\u00eb me dhimbjen shpirt\u00ebro-
\nre t\u00eb vetmis\u00eb s\u00eb tij, n\u00eb mes t\u00eb vje-
\ndh\u00ebsve e t\u00eb vras\u00ebsve, i ngeli t\u00eb
\nprovonte edhe dhimbjen trupo-
\nre, nga puna e lodhshme, t\u00eb fto-
\nhtit e kufizimet. Brenda nj\u00eb ve-
\ntmie t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, ku t\u00eb d\u00ebnuarit i
\nlidhnin kurriz m\u00eb kurriz, q\u00eb t\u00eb
\nmos kishin mund\u00ebsi t\u00eb shihnin
\nfytyr\u00ebn e nj\u00ebri-tjetrit, Dostoje-
\nvski ndjente vetmin\u00eb e pafund.
\nPor, megjith\u00ebse i vetmuar nga
\nshok\u00ebt e tij, ai nuk ishte krejt\u00eb-
\nsisht vet\u00ebm. Bashk\u00eb me t\u00eb ishte
\nPer\u00ebndia, ishte vet\u00eb Krishti, q\u00eb
\nju zbuluan n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet leximit t\u00eb
\nUngjillit. Ishte pik\u00ebrisht ai
\nUngjill, t\u00eb cilin ia dhuroi Fonvi-
\nzina n\u00eb Tobolsk, q\u00eb q\u00ebndroi ba-
\nshk\u00eb me dhimbjen e tij dhe u b\u00eb
\nmiku i tij m\u00eb i mir\u00eb. Ashtu si\u00e7
\npohon edhe bashk\u00ebshortja e tij:
\n“Fjedor Mihailovi\u00e7i nuk u nda
\nasnj\u00eb \u00e7ast nga ky lib\u00ebr i shenjt\u00eb,
\ngjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb koh\u00ebs q\u00eb ishte n\u00eb
\ninternim.” Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, Ungji-
\nlli ishte ngush\u00ebllimi i vet\u00ebm p\u00ebr
\nt\u00eb, ku brenda dhimbjes s\u00eb pa-
\nfundme e ndihmoi p\u00ebr t\u00eb gjetur
\nKrishtin. P\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb, ai do t’i
\nshkruante m\u00eb von\u00eb Fonvizin\u00ebs,
\nse Krishti \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebrteta q\u00eb zbu-
\nlohet brenda vuajtjeve. Me ndi-
\nhm\u00ebn e Ungjillit dhe brenda
\nvuajtjeve ai mundi t\u00eb njoh\u00eb,
\nbashk\u00eb me Krishtin edhe shok\u00ebt
\ne tij t\u00eb d\u00ebnuar. Brenda dashuris\u00eb
\nkristjane dukej solidariteti i tij
\nme t\u00eb internuarit e tjer\u00eb.
\nN\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, Do-
\nstojevski u lidh me nj\u00eb t\u00eb ri t\u00eb
\nd\u00ebnuar, q\u00eb quhej Alei, t\u00eb cilit i
\nm\u00ebsoi t\u00eb lexonte Ungjillin. Nj\u00eb
\ndit\u00eb kur po lexonin s\u00eb bashku,
\nai e pyeti, se \u00e7far\u00eb i p\u00eblqente m\u00eb
\ntep\u00ebr nga Ungjilli? Ai iu p\u00ebrgjigj:
\n“Aty, ku thot\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb duam e t\u00eb
\nfalim edhe armiqt\u00eb tan\u00eb…”
\nP\u00ebrgatiti :Andrea Llukani
\nPoezi nga lexuesit e \u201cNgj allies<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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