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LUTJA, NJ\u00cb KRIJIM GJITHNJ\u00cb I RI<\/span><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Lutja, p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb e p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb<\/span><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n Arkimandrit Sofroni<\/span><\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n <\/p>\n Lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb krijim i pashtersh\u00ebm, q\u00eb gufon gjithmon\u00eb, m\u00eb i lart\u00eb nga \u00e7do art apo shkenc\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. P\u00ebrmes lutjes hyjm\u00eb n\u00eb kungim me Qenien e p\u00ebrjetshme dhe pa fillim. N\u00ebse do ta thoshim ndryshe, lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb jeta e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, i Vetmi q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb realisht dhe q\u00eb hyn te ne n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet k\u00ebsaj udhe.<\/span><\/p>\n Lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb akti i urt\u00ebsis\u00eb supreme, akti i nj\u00eb bukurie dhe fisnik\u00ebrie q\u00eb kap\u00ebrcen gjith\u00e7ka. Kur lutemi, mendja jon\u00eb shijon ngaz\u00ebllim t\u00eb shenjt\u00eb dhe t\u00eb p\u00ebrkor\u00eb. Por udh\u00ebt e k\u00ebtij krijimi, pra t\u00eb lutjes, jan\u00eb komplekse. Me mij\u00ebra her\u00eb, do t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetojm\u00eb nj\u00eb vrull t\u00eb zjarrt\u00eb p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb, por edhe r\u00ebnie larg Drit\u00ebs s\u00eb Tij. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, na duket se lutja vepron tep\u00ebr ngadal\u00eb, n\u00eb raport t\u00eb zhdrejt\u00eb me ekzistenc\u00ebn ton\u00eb. Nj\u00eb britm\u00eb del nga kraharori yn\u00eb: \u201cEja shpejt!\u201d. Por jo gjithmon\u00eb Per\u00ebndia i p\u00ebrgjigjet menj\u00ebher\u00eb thirrjes son\u00eb. Si nj\u00eb fryt i vet\u00ebm n\u00eb pem\u00eb, Ai e l\u00eb shpirtin ton\u00eb t\u00eb digjet n\u00eb diell, duke iu ekspozuar sulmeve t\u00eb er\u00ebrave t\u00eb ftohta ose p\u00ebrv\u00ebluese, duke u torturuar nga etja apo duke iu n\u00ebnshtruar shirave t\u00eb rrebesht\u00eb. Por po t\u00eb mbahemi pas cepit t\u00eb rrob\u00ebs s\u00eb Tij (shih Lluk. 8.44), do t\u00eb shikojm\u00eb rezultatin e lumtur t\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekjeve tona.<\/span><\/p>\n Ne duhet t\u00eb q\u00ebndrojm\u00eb n\u00eb lutje sa m\u00eb gjat\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb e mundur, q\u00eb fuqia e pathyeshme e Krishtit t\u00eb dep\u00ebrtoj\u00eb te ne dhe t\u00eb na b\u00ebje t\u00eb aft\u00eb t\u2019u rezistojm\u00eb gjith\u00eb ndikimeve shkat\u00ebrrimtare. Dhe kur kjo forc\u00eb t\u00eb rritet brenda nesh, shpresa p\u00ebr fitoren p\u00ebrfundimtare do t\u00eb na mbush\u00eb me g\u00ebzim.<\/span><\/p>\n Sigurisht q\u00eb lutja e rivendos brenda nesh frym\u00ebmarrjen hyjnore q\u00eb \u201cPer\u00ebndia fryu n\u00eb vrimat e hund\u00ebs s\u00eb Adamit\u201d, k\u00ebshtu q\u00eb \u201cAdami u b\u00eb nj\u00eb shpirt i gjall\u00eb\u201d (shih Gjen. 2.7). I rip\u00ebrt\u00ebrir\u00eb nga lutja, shpirti yn\u00eb fillon t\u00eb mrekullohet p\u00ebrpara misterit t\u00eb madh t\u00eb Qenies. Si p\u00ebrrua i vrullsh\u00ebm, nj\u00eb entuziaz\u00ebm i nj\u00eb lloji t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb e p\u00ebrmbyt mendjen ton\u00eb: \u201cQenia…, sa mister i mrekulluesh\u00ebm! Si \u00ebsht\u00eb e mundur?… I mrekulluesh\u00ebm \u00ebsht\u00eb Per\u00ebndia yn\u00eb dhe e mrekullueshme krijesa e tij.\u201d P\u00ebrjetojm\u00eb kuptimin e fjal\u00ebve t\u00eb Krishtit: \u201cUn\u00eb erdha q\u00eb t\u00eb ken\u00eb jet\u00eb, dhe ta ken\u00eb me t\u00eb tep\u00ebrt\u201d (Jn. 10.10). Me t\u00eb tep\u00ebrt! Po, me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, e till\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Kjo jet\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb paradoksale, ashtu sikund\u00ebr edhe m\u00ebsimi i Zotit: \u201cErdha t\u00eb v\u00eb zjarr mbi dh\u00e9; edhe \u00e7\u2019dua m\u00eb, n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se u ndez tani\u201d (Lluk. 12.49). P\u00ebr t\u00eb gjith\u00eb ne, pasardh\u00ebsit e Adamit, \u00ebsht\u00eb e domosdoshme t\u00eb kalojm\u00eb p\u00ebrmes k\u00ebsaj flake qiellore, q\u00eb t\u00eb djeg\u00eb rr\u00ebnj\u00ebt e pasioneve tona vdekjeprur\u00ebse, ndryshe nuk do ta shikojm\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb zjarr t\u00eb shnd\u00ebrrohet n\u00eb drit\u00ebn e nj\u00eb jete t\u00eb re. N\u00eb fakt, n\u00eb gjendjen ton\u00eb t\u00eb r\u00ebn\u00eb, djegia paraprin ndri\u00e7imin, dhe jo t\u00eb kund\u00ebrt\u00ebn. K\u00ebshtu pra, le t\u00eb bekojm\u00eb Zotin edhe p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb energji konsumuese t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb s\u00eb Tij.<\/span><\/p>\n Ka ende shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra, q\u00eb nuk i njohim. Megjithat\u00eb, tani e dim\u00eb, qoft\u00eb edhe pjes\u00ebrisht, (shih I Kor. 13.9) se nuk ka rrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebr t\u2019u b\u00ebr\u00eb \u201cbij t\u00eb ngjalljes\u201d (Lluk. 20.36), bij t\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbret\u00ebruar me t\u00eb Vet\u00ebmlindurin. Sado i dhimbsh\u00ebm q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb procesi i rikrijimit ton\u00eb, cilatdo qofshin vuajtjet dhe ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb agonit\u00eb q\u00eb Per\u00ebndia na l\u00eb t\u00eb kalojm\u00eb, gjith\u00e7ka n\u00eb fund do t\u00eb jet\u00eb e bekuar. N\u00eb qoft\u00eb se asimilimi i njohjes shkencore k\u00ebrkon nj\u00eb pun\u00eb sistematike p\u00ebr vite me radh\u00eb, p\u00ebrpjekja p\u00ebr t\u00eb fituar lutjen \u00ebsht\u00eb, pa krahasim, m\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Kur Ungjilli dhe Letrat e Apostujve b\u00ebhen realiteti yn\u00eb i p\u00ebrditsh\u00ebm, fillojm\u00eb t\u00eb shikojm\u00eb m\u00eb qart\u00eb se sa naive kan\u00eb qen\u00eb konceptimet tona t\u00eb m\u00ebparshme p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb dhe jet\u00ebn n\u00eb T\u00eb. E mistershme \u00ebsht\u00eb urt\u00ebsia e zbules\u00ebs q\u00eb na u dha. Kjo e tejkalon imagjinat\u00ebn e njeriut: \u201cAto q\u00eb sy s\u2019i pa, e vesh s\u2019i d\u00ebgjoi, e n\u00eb zem\u00ebr njeriu nuk u ngjit\u00ebn, k\u00ebto Per\u00ebndia i b\u00ebri gati p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb e duan at\u00eb\u201d (I Kor. 2.9). Prekja m\u00eb e vog\u00ebl nga Shpirti Hyjnor \u00ebsht\u00eb lavdi, t\u00eb cil\u00ebn s\u2019do mund ta krahasonim me p\u00ebrmbajtjen e nj\u00eb jete ku s\u2019ka Per\u00ebndi.<\/span><\/p>\n Lutja autentike, e cila na bashkon me t\u00eb T\u00ebr\u00eblartin, nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb asgj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr ve\u00e7se drita dhe fuqia e qiellit q\u00eb ka zbritur mbi ne. N\u00eb esenc\u00ebn e saj, ajo transhendon planin ton\u00eb t\u00eb ekzistenc\u00ebs; ajo s\u2019ka burim energjie n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb. N\u00ebse ushqehem mir\u00eb q\u00eb trupi t\u00eb jet\u00eb i fuqish\u00ebm, mishi im ngre krye dhe k\u00ebrkesat e tij rriten: nuk do m\u00eb t\u00eb lutet. N\u00ebse e vdek\u00ebsoj mishin me kreshm\u00eb t\u00eb rrept\u00eb, kjo vet\u00ebp\u00ebrmbajtje e dhimbshme krijon p\u00ebr nj\u00eb far\u00eb kohe nj\u00eb terren t\u00eb favorsh\u00ebm p\u00ebr lutjen, por n\u00eb vazhdim trupi lodhet dhe refuzon t\u00eb ndjek\u00eb pas shpirtin. N\u00eb qoft\u00eb se vizitoj njer\u00ebz t\u00eb ditur, mund t\u00eb ndiej k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsi t\u00eb brendshme, ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb mund t\u00eb kem nj\u00eb p\u00ebrjetim t\u00eb ri n\u00eb fush\u00ebn psikologjike ose intelektuale, por p\u00ebr lutjen e thell\u00eb shum\u00eb rrall\u00eb marr nj\u00eb shtys\u00eb. N\u00eb planin intelektual, n\u00ebse jam i talentuar p\u00ebr pun\u00eb shkencore ose p\u00ebr nj\u00eb krijim artistik, suksesi mund t\u00eb m\u00eb sh\u00ebrbej\u00eb si pretekst p\u00ebr t\u2019u krekosur; dhe at\u00ebher\u00eb do t\u00eb jet\u00eb e pamundur t\u00eb gjej zemr\u00ebn time t\u00eb thell\u00eb, vendin e lutjes shpirt\u00ebrore. N\u00ebse jam i pasur dhe k\u00ebrkoj t\u00eb nxjerr p\u00ebrfitime nga pushteti q\u00eb m\u00eb jep pasuria, ose t\u00eb realizoj disa nga idet\u00eb e mia, ose t\u00eb k\u00ebnaq d\u00ebshirat e mia estetike e kulturore, shpirti im nuk do t\u00eb ngjitet drejt Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, ashtu si\u00e7 e kemi njohur p\u00ebrmes Krishtit. N\u00ebse shkoj n\u00eb shkret\u00ebtir\u00eb pasi t\u2019i kem mohuar t\u00eb mirat q\u00eb zot\u00ebroja, t\u00ebr\u00eb energjit\u00eb kozmike do t\u00eb bashkohen p\u00ebr t\u00eb paralizuar lutjen time. Dhe k\u00ebshtu me radh\u00eb, pa fund.<\/span><\/p>\n Lutja e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb drejtuar Per\u00ebndis\u00eb s\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb kungim me Shpirtin Hyjnor, q\u00eb lutet brenda nesh; sepse \u00ebsht\u00eb Ai q\u00eb na b\u00ebn t\u00eb njohim Per\u00ebndin\u00eb; \u00ebsht\u00eb Ai q\u00eb e ngre shpirtin ton\u00eb n\u00eb gjendjen e soditjes s\u00eb p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb. Si hir q\u00eb vjen prej s\u00eb larti, lutja e transhendon natyr\u00ebn ton\u00eb tok\u00ebsore. Prandaj dhe trupi yn\u00eb i prishsh\u00ebm, i paaft\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u ngjitur n\u00eb sfer\u00ebn shpirt\u00ebrore, e kund\u00ebrshton. Edhe mendja jon\u00eb, e paaft\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb mbajtur t\u00eb Pafundmin, i b\u00ebn q\u00ebndres\u00eb; ajo zvarritet n\u00eb dyshime dhe hedh posht\u00eb \u00e7do gj\u00eb q\u00eb e kap\u00ebrcen kuptimin e saj. Rrethi shoq\u00ebror ku jetojm\u00eb i kund\u00ebrvihet lutjes, sepse jet\u00ebn e tij e organizon duke pasur t\u00eb tjera q\u00ebllime, diametralisht t\u00eb kund\u00ebrta. Frym\u00ebt armiq\u00ebsore nuk e durojn\u00eb dot at\u00eb. Por vet\u00ebm lutja i lejon bot\u00ebs s\u00eb krijuar t\u00eb ngrihet nga r\u00ebnia e saj, sepse ajo triumfon mbi gravitetin dhe inercin\u00eb e saj fal\u00eb vigjilenc\u00ebs s\u00eb madhe t\u00eb shpirtit ton\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ruajtur porosit\u00eb e Krishtit.<\/span><\/p>\n Beteja p\u00ebr lutjen \u00ebsht\u00eb e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb, sepse edhe gjendjet e shpirtit ndryshojn\u00eb. Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb lutja rrjedh p\u00ebrbrenda nesh si lum\u00eb i fuqish\u00ebm, her\u00eb t\u00eb tjera zemra jon\u00eb thahet. Le t\u00eb vigjilojm\u00eb q\u00eb \u00e7do mpakje e fuqis\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u lutur t\u00eb zgjas\u00eb sa m\u00eb pak q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb e mundur. T\u00eb lutesh, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb q\u00eb shpesh t\u2019i paraqes\u00ebsh Per\u00ebndis\u00eb gjendjen t\u00ebnde t\u00eb mjerueshme: dob\u00ebsi, topitje, dyshime, frik\u00eb, ankth, d\u00ebshp\u00ebrim, me nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb, gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb lidhet me kushtet e ekzistenc\u00ebs son\u00eb. Pra, ta paraqesim gjendjen ton\u00eb, por pa k\u00ebrkuar shprehje elegante apo ndonj\u00eb rrjedh\u00eb logjike… Shpesh, kjo m\u00ebnyr\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019iu drejtuar Per\u00ebndis\u00eb sh\u00ebnon fillimin e nj\u00eb lutjeje q\u00eb merr form\u00ebn e nj\u00eb bashk\u00ebbisedimi.<\/span><\/p>\n Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb rr\u00ebmbehemi nga val\u00ebt e Dashuris\u00eb hyjnore, dhe p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb naivitetit ton\u00eb, mund ta marrin subjektivisht si dashurin\u00eb ton\u00eb p\u00ebr At\u00eb. Ja se si ndodhi kjo me mua: Nuk guxoja t\u00eb mendoja q\u00eb, n\u00eb madh\u00ebshtin\u00eb e Tij t\u00eb pafund, Krijuesi i universit mund t\u00eb ndalte v\u00ebmendjen e Tij mbi mua, q\u00eb jam i par\u00ebnd\u00ebsish\u00ebm dhe i ngrat\u00eb. Thosha n\u00eb lutjen time: \u201cAh! Sikur t\u00eb qe e mundur t\u00eb m\u00eb doje si\u00e7 t\u00eb dua un\u00eb Ty!… A e shikon sa shum\u00eb etje ka zemra ime p\u00ebr Ty nat\u00eb e dit\u00eb? Ule veshin t\u00ebnd tek un\u00eb; m\u00eb trego fytyr\u00ebn t\u00ebnde; m\u00eb b\u00ebj si\u00e7 ti do, t\u00eb shikoj ata q\u00eb ke krijuar, si ty, o i T\u00ebr\u00ebshenjt\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00eb pres\u00ebsh e t\u00eb m\u00eb duash…\u201d Nuk dija \u00e7\u2019thosha (shih Lluk. 9.33). Nuk guxoja as t\u00eb mendoja se ishte Per\u00ebndia vet\u00eb q\u00eb lutej brenda meje.<\/span><\/p>\n T\u00eb sodit\u00ebsh shenjt\u00ebrin\u00eb dhe p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, kjo e prek shpirtin. Me p\u00ebrkushtim t\u00eb madh dhe dashuri, shpirti p\u00ebrkulet s\u00eb brendshmi para Tij. Nj\u00eb lutje e till\u00eb shnd\u00ebrrohet ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb n\u00eb vizion t\u00eb Drit\u00ebs s\u00eb pakrijuar.<\/span><\/p>\n Q\u00eb t\u00eb njohim dhuntit\u00eb q\u00eb burojn\u00eb prej Tij, Per\u00ebndia na l\u00eb m\u00ebnjan\u00eb p\u00ebr nj\u00eb far\u00eb kohe, pasi na ka vizituar m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara. Braktisja e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb krijon nj\u00eb p\u00ebrshtypje t\u00eb \u00e7uditshme. Kur isha i ri, merresha me piktur\u00eb kam frik\u00eb se ende, piktori nuk ka vdekur plot\u00ebsisht tek un\u00eb. Kjo dhunti e natyrshme ishte e pranishme brenda meje. Mund t\u00eb isha i st\u00ebrmunduar, t\u00eb mos kisha m\u00eb fuqi p\u00ebr t\u00eb punuar, pa frym\u00ebzim, megjithat\u00eb e dija se kjo dhurat\u00eb b\u00ebnte pjes\u00eb n\u00eb natyr\u00ebn time. N\u00eb t\u00eb kund\u00ebrt, kur Per\u00ebndia t\u00ebrhiqet, ndiejm\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj shembjeje n\u00eb qenien ton\u00eb; shpirti nuk e di n\u00ebse Ai q\u00eb u largua do t\u00eb kthehet nj\u00eb dit\u00eb. Per\u00ebndia \u00ebsht\u00eb ndryshe, nga natyra e tij. Ai u fsheh, dhe un\u00eb mbeta \u201ci zbraz\u00ebt\u201d; e ndiej k\u00ebt\u00eb zbraz\u00ebti si nj\u00eb vdekje. Ardhja e Tij m\u00eb kishte treguar di\u00e7ka t\u00eb \u00ebmb\u00ebl e t\u00eb mrekullueshme n\u00eb zem\u00ebr, e cila kap\u00ebrcente fantazin\u00eb time m\u00eb t\u00eb guximshme. Ndon\u00ebse, i zhytur p\u00ebrs\u00ebri n\u00eb gjendjen q\u00eb m\u00eb par\u00eb m\u00eb ngjante \u201cnormale\u201d dhe e k\u00ebnaqshme, por q\u00eb tani m\u00eb b\u00ebn t\u00eb dridhem; e ndiej si tep\u00ebr kafsh\u00ebrore, tep\u00ebr shtazarake… Isha futur n\u00eb pallatin e Mbretit t\u00eb madh dhe e kisha ditur q\u00eb isha i af\u00ebrmi i Tij; por tani s\u00ebrish jam nj\u00eb endacak i pastreh\u00eb. Nd\u00ebrthurja e gjendjeve tona na lejon t\u00eb kuptojm\u00eb dallimin q\u00eb ekziston mes dhuntive t\u00eb natyrshme dhe atyre q\u00eb zbresin nga mir\u00ebdashja prej s\u00eb larti. N\u00eb saje t\u00eb lutjes p\u00ebr pendim u gjykova i denj\u00eb p\u00ebr vizit\u00ebn e par\u00eb t\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, dhe fal\u00eb lutjes – edhe m\u00eb t\u00eb zjarrt\u00eb – shpresoj q\u00eb kjo ta kthej\u00eb At\u00eb. Dhe realisht, Ai vjen.<\/span><\/p>\n Shpesh, dhe zakonisht, Ai e ndryshon natyr\u00ebn e ardhjes s\u00eb Tij. K\u00ebshtu, pasurohem vazhdimisht me njohuri t\u00eb reja p\u00ebr sa i p\u00ebrket Shpirtit. Her\u00eb-her\u00eb n\u00eb vuajtje, her\u00eb-her\u00eb n\u00eb g\u00ebzim, por un\u00eb p\u00ebrparoj. Aft\u00ebsia ime p\u00ebr t\u00eb q\u00ebndruar m\u00eb gjat\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb sfer\u00eb, e cila m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara ishte e panjohur, rritet.<\/span><\/p>\n Mbaje mendjen t\u00eb ngulitur fort te Per\u00ebndia, dhe do t\u00eb vij\u00eb \u00e7asti ku Shpirti i pavdeksh\u00ebm do t\u00eb t\u00eb prek\u00eb zemr\u00ebn. Oh, k\u00ebt\u00eb prekje t\u00eb t\u00eb Shenjtit t\u00eb t\u00eb shenjt\u00ebve s\u2019mund ta krahasojm\u00eb me asgj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. Ajo e g\u00ebzon shpirtin n\u00eb planin e Qenies s\u00eb pakrijuar. E plagos zemr\u00ebn nga dashuria, por me nj\u00eb dashuri ndryshe nga ajo q\u00eb kuptojm\u00eb zakonisht me k\u00ebt\u00eb term. Drita e k\u00ebsaj dashurie shp\u00ebrndahet n\u00eb mbar\u00eb krijes\u00ebn, n\u00eb mbar\u00eb gjinin\u00eb njer\u00ebzore n\u00eb ekzistenc\u00ebn e saj mij\u00ebvje\u00e7are. Kjo dashuri b\u00ebhet e ndjeshme n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn fizike, por nga natyra, ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb shpirt\u00ebrore, e pakrijuar, sepse buron prej Per\u00ebndis\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Shpirti Hyjnor, dhuruesi i jet\u00ebs, na viziton kur mbajm\u00eb q\u00ebndrim t\u00eb p\u00ebrulur ndaj tij. Ai nuk e dhunon lirin\u00eb ton\u00eb. Na rrethon me delikates\u00eb me ngroht\u00ebsin\u00eb e tij. Na afrohet me kaq takt, sa ne ndoshta mund t\u00eb mos e v\u00ebm\u00eb re menj\u00ebher\u00eb. Nuk duhet t\u00eb presim q\u00eb Per\u00ebndia t\u00eb nd\u00ebrhyj\u00eb te ne me dhun\u00eb, pa p\u00eblqimin ton\u00eb. Jo, Ai e respekton njeriun, p\u00ebrulet para tij. Dashuria e Tij \u00ebsht\u00eb e p\u00ebrulur. Ai na do, jo p\u00ebrciptazi, por si n\u00ebna e dhembshur q\u00eb do f\u00ebmij\u00ebn e saj t\u00eb s\u00ebmur\u00eb. Kur i hapim zemr\u00ebn, kemi ndjenj\u00ebn e pap\u00ebrmbajtshme se Ai \u00ebsht\u00eb \u201ci familjes\u201d, dhe shpirti gjunj\u00ebzohet para Tij n\u00eb nj\u00eb emocion t\u00eb p\u00ebrulur dashurie.<\/span><\/p>\n Dashuria hyjnore, e cila \u00ebsht\u00eb vula e p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb s\u00eb gjall\u00eb, nuk mund t\u00eb mos vuaj\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb. Zemr\u00ebs s\u00eb zbutur nga asketizmi dhe nga vizita e hirit, nganj\u00ebher\u00eb i jepet t\u00eb jetoj\u00eb – edhe pjes\u00ebrisht – dashurin\u00eb e Krishtit, dashuri q\u00eb p\u00ebrqafon t\u00ebr\u00eb krijes\u00ebn me dhembshuri t\u00eb pafund p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb ekziston.<\/span> P\u00ebrul\u00ebsia e Krishtit \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb forc\u00eb q\u00eb triumfon mbi gjith\u00e7ka. N\u00eb kenoz\u00ebn (zbrazjen) e Krishtit dhe n\u00eb p\u00ebrkujdesjen e Tij ndaj nesh, ajo nuk njeh degradim: e pandryshueshme n\u00eb esenc\u00ebn e saj, ajo mbetet hyjnisht e madhe. Po t\u00eb shprehej me fjal\u00eb, ajo do t\u00eb ngjante kontradiktore. P\u00ebrul\u00ebsia \u00ebsht\u00eb atribut i Per\u00ebndis\u00eb s\u00eb Dashuris\u00eb, i Cili me hapjen e Tij para krijes\u00ebs, pranon me but\u00ebsi gjith\u00eb plagosjet nga ana e atyre q\u00eb Ai ka krijuar.<\/span><\/p>\n Vizioni i Per\u00ebndis\u00eb e vendos njeriun n\u00eb domosdoshm\u00ebrin\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u p\u00ebrcaktuar n\u00eb lidhje m\u00eb T\u00eb. N\u00eb esenc\u00ebn e vet, \u00e7donj\u00ebri nga veprimet tona pashmangshm\u00ebrisht ose do t\u00eb na afroj\u00eb, ose do t\u00eb na largoj\u00eb nga Per\u00ebndia. Pra, \u00e7do aktivitet duhet t\u00eb p\u00ebrmbushet me at\u00eb q\u00eb quhet \u201cfrik\u00eb Per\u00ebndie\u201d. Shpirti nuk i trembet vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb veprimi me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb t\u00eb keq, por edhe nj\u00eb mendimi q\u00eb mund ta hidh\u00ebroj\u00eb Shpirtin e Shenjt\u00eb q\u00eb ai do. Larg\u00ebsia mes nesh dhe Per\u00ebndis\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb pashprehimisht e madhe. E konsiderojm\u00eb veten si t\u00eb padenj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb Shenjtin e t\u00eb shenjt\u00ebve; zemra na thyhet kur nd\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsohemi me dhimbje p\u00ebr varf\u00ebrin\u00eb ton\u00eb. Nuk e kuptojm\u00eb menj\u00ebher\u00eb, se tashm\u00eb ky fenomen \u00ebsht\u00eb pik\u00ebrisht fillimi i afrimit ton\u00eb me Per\u00ebndin\u00eb. Urdh\u00ebrimi i par\u00eb i Lum\u00ebrimeve – \u201cLum t\u00eb varfrit n\u00eb shpirt\u201d – t\u00eb \u00e7on organikisht n\u00eb shkall\u00ebt q\u00eb vijojn\u00eb: te lot\u00ebt, te but\u00ebsia, uria dhe etja p\u00ebr drejt\u00ebsi, te m\u00ebshira, past\u00ebrtia e zemr\u00ebs, te perceptimi i par\u00eb dhe i gjall\u00eb i bir\u00ebsimit ton\u00eb hyjnor. Gjithashtu na drejton n\u00eb nj\u00eb konflikt t\u00eb mundimsh\u00ebm me bot\u00ebn e pasioneve, n\u00eb nj\u00eb ndarje me ata q\u00eb nuk e k\u00ebrkojn\u00eb Mbret\u00ebrin\u00eb e drejt\u00ebsis\u00eb. S\u00eb fundi, na \u00e7on n\u00eb persekutime, n\u00eb fyerje, n\u00eb shpifje dhe t\u00eb tjera si k\u00ebto. Kur rezistenca e shpirtit t\u00eb krishter\u00eb kund\u00ebr frym\u00ebs s\u00eb k\u00ebsaj bote arrin kulmin e saj, jeta e dishepullit t\u00eb Krishtit ngjan me nj\u00eb kryq\u00ebzim qoft\u00eb edhe mbi nj\u00eb kryq t\u00eb paduksh\u00ebm. Kjo periudh\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e frikshme, por n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn koh\u00eb, shp\u00ebtimtare: p\u00ebrmes vuajtjeve t\u00eb brendshme t\u00eb shpirtit, q\u00eb shpesh lidhen me fatkeq\u00ebsi t\u00eb jashtme, triumfojm\u00eb mbi pasionet, \u00e7lirohemi nga ndikimi i bot\u00ebs madje dhe nga vdekja. At\u00ebher\u00eb fillon ngjashm\u00ebria jon\u00eb me Krishtin e kryq\u00ebzuar.<\/span><\/p>\n Mir\u00ebpo, edhe pse kemi arritur n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb stad superior, duhet t\u00eb ruajm\u00eb p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb e shpirtit. Vet\u00eb p\u00ebrvoja e tregon k\u00ebt\u00eb: q\u00eb nga momenti kur vet\u00ebk\u00ebnaq\u00ebsia z\u00ebvend\u00ebson ndjenj\u00ebn e \u201cvarf\u00ebris\u00eb\u201d, e gjith\u00eb kjo shkall\u00eb e ngjitjeve shpirt\u00ebrore shembet dhe sht\u00ebpia jon\u00eb lihet e shkret\u00eb (shih Matth. 23.38). Per\u00ebndia s\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00eb me ne. Dhe k\u00ebshtu do t\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebr sa koh\u00eb q\u00eb zemra nuk ka gjetur p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb dhe nuk ka thirrur me dhimbje drejt Atij. Fal\u00eb nd\u00ebrthurjes s\u00eb k\u00ebtyre eksperiencave, shpirti arrin t\u00eb kap\u00eb misterin e udh\u00ebve t\u00eb shp\u00ebtimit. Dyshon n\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb bie n\u00eb kund\u00ebrshtim me p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb. Lutja e tij pastrohet. Mendja dhe zemra nuk lihen q\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebrhiqen nga asgj\u00eb e huaj, nuk d\u00ebshirojn\u00eb asgj\u00eb n\u00ebse s\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb nga Per\u00ebndia. Tek ai q\u00eb lutet me gjith\u00eb qenien e tij, shp\u00ebrndahet forca e nj\u00eb jete t\u00eb re, e cila e ngre n\u00eb shkall\u00eb supreme; ai fillon t\u00eb njoh\u00eb nj\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb ekzistence jo m\u00eb tok\u00ebsore, por qiellore.<\/span><\/p>\n Ekzistenca jon\u00eb tok\u00ebsore kusht\u00ebzohet nga koha dhe hap\u00ebsira. Por \u00e7far\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb koha? Mund t\u00eb jepen p\u00ebrkufizime t\u00eb ndryshme. Koha \u00ebsht\u00eb \u201cvendi\u201d i takimit ton\u00eb me Krijuesin. Ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb mjeti i realizimit t\u00eb planit t\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb mbi krijes\u00ebn: \u201cAti im punon deri tani, dhe un\u00eb punoj\u201d (Jn. 5.17). Krijimi ende nuk ka p\u00ebrfunduar: \u201cEcni derisa keni drit\u00ebn, q\u00eb t\u00eb mos ju z\u00ebr\u00eb err\u00ebsira; sepse ai q\u00eb ec\u00ebn n\u00eb err\u00ebsir\u00eb nuk di se ku shkon. Deri sa keni drit\u00eb, t\u2019i besoni drit\u00ebs, q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebheni bij t\u00eb drit\u00ebs\u201d (Jn. 12.35-36). Te secili nga ne \u00ebsht\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj \u201ckohe vetjake\u201d, sigurisht e shkurt\u00ebr, por e mjaftueshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb arritur n\u00eb shp\u00ebtim. Ideja krijuese e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb realizohet n\u00eb krijes\u00eb: \u201cSepse s\u2019ka pun\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb e pamundur p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb\u201d (shih Lluk. 1.37). N\u00eb Golgotha, Zoti tha para se t\u00eb vdiste: \u201cU krye\u201d (Jn. 19.30). Do t\u00eb vij\u00eb nj\u00eb moment tjet\u00ebr ku nj\u00eb fjal\u00eb e ngjashme do t\u00eb shqiptohet p\u00ebrs\u00ebri; p\u00ebrmendet te Apokalipsi: \u201cAt\u00ebher\u00eb Engj\u00eblli […] ngriti dor\u00ebn e djatht\u00eb drejt qiellit dhe b\u00ebri be p\u00ebr At\u00eb q\u00eb rron n\u00eb shekuj t\u00eb shekujve […] se nuk do t\u00eb vonohet m\u00eb\u201d (Apok. 10.5-6).<\/span><\/p>\n P\u00ebr sa koh\u00eb jemi n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb \u201ctrup m\u00ebkati\u201d, dhe si pasoj\u00eb edhe n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb, lufta asketike kund\u00ebr \u201cligjit t\u00eb m\u00ebkatit\u201d, i cili vepron n\u00eb mishin ton\u00eb, nuk do t\u00eb resht\u00eb (shih Rom. 6.6; 7.23). Duke e par\u00eb veten t\u00eb paaft\u00eb p\u00ebr ta mundur k\u00ebt\u00eb vdekje me p\u00ebrpjekjet tona, d\u00ebshp\u00ebrohemi disi p\u00ebr shp\u00ebtimin. Sado e \u00e7uditshme q\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb e domosdoshme t\u00eb jetojm\u00eb n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb mundimshme, ta p\u00ebrjetojm\u00eb me qindra her\u00eb, q\u00eb t\u00eb gdhendet thell\u00ebsisht n\u00eb vet\u00ebdijen ton\u00eb. P\u00ebr ne \u00ebsht\u00eb e dobishme t\u00eb kalojm\u00eb nga kjo p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb e ferrit. Kur e mbajm\u00eb n\u00eb vetvete k\u00ebt\u00eb mundim p\u00ebr vite, madje p\u00ebr dekada, ai b\u00ebhet p\u00ebrmbajtja e p\u00ebrhershme e shpirtit ton\u00eb, nj\u00eb plag\u00eb q\u00eb zgjat n\u00eb \u201ctrupin\u201d e jet\u00ebs son\u00eb. Vet\u00eb Krishti ruajti gjurm\u00ebt e gozhd\u00ebve t\u00eb kryq\u00ebzimit n\u00eb trup, edhe pas ngjalljes: \u201cJisui erdhi dhe ndenji n\u00eb mes, dhe u thot\u00eb atyre: \u2018Paqe mbi ju!\u2019 […] U tregoi atyre duart, k\u00ebmb\u00ebt dhe brinj\u00ebn e tij\u201d (Jn. 20.19-20).<\/span><\/p>\n Duke u nisur nga eksperienca e mundimeve t\u00eb ferrit duhet t\u00eb lind\u00eb nj\u00eb lutje p\u00ebr t\u00ebr\u00eb gjinin\u00eb njer\u00ebzore si p\u00ebr veten t\u00ebnde (shih Matth. 22.39). Nga kufijt\u00eb e ngusht\u00eb t\u00eb individualitetit ton\u00eb, transferojm\u00eb n\u00eb frym\u00eb \u00e7donj\u00ebr\u00ebn nga gjendjet tona te mbar\u00eb njer\u00ebzimi. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb, secila nga eksperiencat tona b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb zbulim i asaj q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrmbushur p\u00ebrgjat\u00eb shekujve n\u00eb gjinin\u00eb njer\u00ebzore, dhe identifikimi yn\u00eb shpirt\u00ebror bashk\u00eb me t\u00eb b\u00ebhet realitet i preksh\u00ebm.<\/span><\/p>\n Zoti na zbuloi kuptimin e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb t\u00eb urdh\u00ebrimeve: \u201cDuaj t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin t\u00ebnd si veten t\u00ebnde\u201d, n\u00eb universalitetin e Tij hyjnor. M\u00eb p\u00ebrpara, brenda caqeve t\u00eb Ligjit t\u00eb Moisiut, ky urdh\u00ebrim kishte nj\u00eb fush\u00eb t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb zbatimi dhe synonte vet\u00ebm popullin hebre: \u201cNuk do t\u00eb hakmerresh dhe nuk do t\u00eb mbash m\u00ebri ndaj f\u00ebmij\u00ebve t\u00eb popullit t\u00ebnd. Do t\u00eb duash t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin t\u00ebnd si veten t\u00ebnde\u201d (Lev. 19.18). Por, Krishti e shtriu k\u00ebt\u00eb dashuri mbi t\u00eb gjith\u00eb njer\u00ebzit n\u00eb shekuj. \u201cKeni d\u00ebgjuar se \u00ebsht\u00eb th\u00ebn\u00eb: T\u00eb duash t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin t\u00ebnd dhe t\u2019i kesh m\u00ebri armikut t\u00ebnd. Por un\u00eb po ju them juve: Doni armiqt\u00eb tuaj, bekoni ata q\u00eb ju mallkojn\u00eb ju, b\u00ebjuni mir\u00eb atyre q\u00eb ju kan\u00eb m\u00ebri juve, dhe faluni p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb ju b\u00ebjn\u00eb keq e ju ndjekin ju; q\u00eb t\u00eb jeni bij t\u00eb Atit tuaj q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb qiej\u201d (Matth. 5.43-45). Biri i vet\u00ebm i Atit ton\u00eb qiellor na e ka dh\u00ebn\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb njohuri n\u00eb Shkrimin e Shenjt\u00eb me bised\u00ebn q\u00eb pati me nj\u00eb m\u00ebsues t\u00eb Ligjit (shih Lluk. 10.27) dhe n\u00eb jet\u00ebn ton\u00eb p\u00ebrmes Shpirtit t\u00eb Shenjt\u00eb. Ai vet\u00eb e ka p\u00ebrmbushur k\u00ebt\u00eb n\u00eb plot\u00ebsi, n\u00eb p\u00ebrsosm\u00ebri, n\u00eb Gjethsemani dhe n\u00eb Golgotha. Dhe kur ne hyjm\u00eb n\u00eb frym\u00ebn e k\u00ebtij urdh\u00ebrimi, b\u00ebhemi t\u00eb ngjash\u00ebm me Per\u00ebndin\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Shum\u00eb her\u00eb kam qen\u00eb i d\u00ebshp\u00ebruar p\u00ebr paaft\u00ebsin\u00eb time p\u00ebr t\u00eb q\u00ebndruar vazhdimisht n\u00eb frym\u00ebn e urdh\u00ebrimeve t\u00eb Krishtit. N\u00eb k\u00ebto or\u00eb t\u00eb hidhura, mendoja: \u00abZoti tha se nuk ishte nga kjo bot\u00eb (shih Jn. 8.23). Ai zbriti nga qielli (shih Jn. 3.13). Por un\u00eb, un\u00eb jam t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht prej k\u00ebsaj bote, prej k\u00ebsaj toke q\u00eb e shkel me k\u00ebmb\u00ebt e mia. Ai, \u201cduke qen\u00eb n\u00eb qiej\u201d nuk u nda nga Ati kur jetonte me ne. Vall\u00eb, si \u00ebsht\u00eb e mundur q\u00eb un\u00eb t\u00eb jem atje ku Ai \u00ebsht\u00eb? Ai \u00ebsht\u00eb i shenjt\u00eb, nd\u00ebrsa un\u00eb nuk mund ta shk\u00ebpus veten nga \u201ctrupi\u201d i Adamit universal, i cili, n\u00eb r\u00ebnien e tij, e shnd\u00ebrroi k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb n\u00eb ferr, \u201ce zhyti n\u00eb t\u00eb keqen\u201d (shih I Jn. 5.19) ku dhe un\u00eb gjithashtu, dergjem tani me t\u00eb.\u00bb<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7\u2019do t\u00eb thot\u00eb \u201ct\u00eb mos jesh prej k\u00ebsaj bote\u201d? Asgj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr ve\u00e7se \u201ct\u00eb lind\u00ebsh q\u00eb lartazi\u201d. Nuk shikoja kufi n\u00eb fatkeq\u00ebsin\u00eb time. T\u00eb heq\u00ebsh dor\u00eb nga k\u00ebrkimi p\u00ebr t\u2019u bashkuar me T\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb e pamundur! Ta d\u00ebnoja veten duke qen\u00eb i ndar\u00eb nga Drita e Tij, kjo gj\u00eb m\u00eb mbush me tmerr. Mjer\u00eb un\u00eb q\u00eb linda n\u00eb m\u00ebkat! Kush do t\u00eb m\u00eb shp\u00ebtoj\u00eb nga err\u00ebsirat e jashtme? Kush do ta transformoj\u00eb natyr\u00ebn time q\u00eb t\u00eb aft\u00ebsohet e t\u00eb jet\u00eb pandashm\u00ebrisht e bashkuar me At\u00eb q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb Drit\u00eb dhe tek i Cili s\u2019ka aspak terr?<\/span><\/p>\n U ngjiza n\u00eb m\u00ebkat. Mora nj\u00eb trash\u00ebgimi tejet t\u00eb r\u00ebnd\u00eb: r\u00ebnien e Adamit. R\u00ebnie kjo q\u00eb u r\u00ebndua gjat\u00eb shekujve nga bijt\u00eb e tij. R\u00ebnie kjo, s\u00eb cil\u00ebs i shtoj edhe un\u00eb \u00e7do dit\u00eb di\u00e7ka. Vajtoj kur e shoh veten k\u00ebshtu. Dhe kur vajtimet e mia m\u00eb lodhin, m\u00eb drejtojn\u00eb n\u00eb pragun e vdekjes dhe, pa pasur ndihm\u00eb, gjendem i varur mbi gremin\u00ebn e err\u00ebsir\u00ebs; at\u00ebher\u00eb, n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb pashpjegueshme, nj\u00eb fllad i leht\u00eb dashurie vjen nga nj\u00eb bot\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, e shoq\u00ebruar nga Drita. Sigurisht, \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb lindje prej s\u00eb larti, ende jo e plot\u00eb, por sidoqoft\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb \u00e7lirim nga pushteti i err\u00ebt i vdekjes, agimi i pavdek\u00ebsis\u00eb. Me siguri, nj\u00eb asketiz\u00ebm i gjat\u00eb na pret, me q\u00ebllim q\u00eb dhurata e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb t\u00eb zhvillohet tek ne. Dhe kur kjo dhurat\u00eb e mrekullueshme fillon t\u00eb piqet dhe kur aroma e saj dep\u00ebrton n\u00eb poret e \u201ctrupit ton\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebkatit\u201d (Rom. 6.6), frika e vdekjes na braktis, dhe \u00e7lirohemi nga \u201cskllav\u00ebria\u201d (shih Hebr. 2.15) e formave t\u00eb panum\u00ebrta. At\u00ebher\u00eb, n\u00eb lirin\u00eb e shenjt\u00eb q\u00eb kemi gjetur, d\u00ebshirojm\u00eb t\u00eb mir\u00ebn p\u00ebr t\u00ebr\u00eb njer\u00ebzit.<\/span><\/p>\n Dashuria e Krishtit na frym\u00ebzon nj\u00eb lutje dhembshurie p\u00ebr t\u00ebr\u00eb njer\u00ebzit; si shpirti dhe trupi marrin pjes\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00eb. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb lutje, pik\u00ebllimet q\u00eb ndiejm\u00eb p\u00ebr m\u00ebkatin e v\u00ebllait na b\u00ebjn\u00eb t\u00eb kungohemi me pasionin \u00e7lirimtar t\u00eb Zotit: \u201cKrishti vuajti p\u00ebr m\u00ebkatet tona, i drejti p\u00ebr t\u00eb padrejt\u00ebt. […] Krishti vuajti p\u00ebr ne, duke na l\u00ebn\u00eb nj\u00eb shembull, q\u00eb t\u00eb ndjekim gjurm\u00ebt e tij\u201d (I Petr. 3.18; 2.21). T\u00eb jesh i kryq\u00ebzuar me T\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb dhurat\u00eb e Shpirtit t\u00eb Shenjt\u00eb. Ati yn\u00eb qiellor g\u00ebzohet kur ne hidh\u00ebrohemi p\u00ebr hapat e gabuar t\u00eb v\u00ebllez\u00ebrve tan\u00eb. Sipas frym\u00ebs s\u00eb porosis\u00eb \u201cDuaje t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin si veten t\u00ebnde\u201d, duhet t\u00eb kemi dhembshuri p\u00ebr nj\u00ebri-tjetrin; \u00ebsht\u00eb e nevojshme q\u00eb t\u00eb krijohet nj\u00eb solidaritet q\u00eb na bashkon t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve para Faqes s\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, Krijuesit ton\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Mundimet q\u00eb shpirti heq kur lutet p\u00ebr shp\u00ebtimin e njer\u00ebzve, p\u00ebrmbajn\u00eb nj\u00eb potencial gjall\u00ebrues dhe nj\u00eb g\u00ebzim t\u00eb shenjt\u00eb. Karakteri jo m\u00eb tok\u00ebsor, por hyj-formues i jet\u00ebs s\u00eb krishter\u00eb q\u00ebndron n\u00eb faktin se n\u00eb t\u00eb bashkohen n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb mrekullueshme pik\u00ebllimi dhe g\u00ebzimi, thell\u00ebsia dhe lart\u00ebsia, e shkuara, e tashmja dhe e ardhmja e historis\u00eb shum\u00ebshekullore e tok\u00ebs. Sikurse dielli d\u00ebrgon rrezet e tij n\u00eb t\u00eb gjitha drejtimet, duke mbushur gjith\u00eb hap\u00ebsir\u00ebn me ngroht\u00ebsi dhe drit\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu drita dhe ngroht\u00ebsia e dashuris\u00eb s\u00eb Krishtit kap\u00ebrcejn\u00eb gjith\u00eb barrierat dhe e t\u00ebrheqin shpirtin n\u00eb pafund\u00ebsi. Cili poet do t\u00eb gjej\u00eb fjal\u00ebt e duhura p\u00ebr t\u00eb shprehur mir\u00ebnjohjen dhe \u00e7udin\u00eb ton\u00eb p\u00ebr jet\u00ebn q\u00eb na u dha? N\u00eb t\u00eb, vdekja transformohet nga ngjallja n\u00eb jet\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetshme: \u201cAi q\u00eb do ta humbas\u00eb shpirtin e tij p\u00ebr shkakun tim, do ta gjej\u00eb at\u00eb\u201d (Matth. 16.25). \u201cMe t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb po ju them juve, n\u00eb mos r\u00ebnt\u00eb kokrra e grurit n\u00eb dh\u00e9 e t\u00eb vdes\u00eb, ajo mbetet e vetme; por n\u00eb vdekt\u00eb, sjell shum\u00eb pem\u00eb. Ai q\u00eb do jet\u00ebn e tij do ta humbas\u00eb; por ai q\u00eb urren jet\u00ebn e tij n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb, do ta ruaj\u00eb p\u00ebr jet\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetshme\u201d (Jn. 12.24-25).<\/span><\/p>\n Rrug\u00ebtimi p\u00ebr t\u00eb asimiluar zbules\u00ebn q\u00eb iu dha njer\u00ebzimit nga lart, na duket i ngadalt\u00eb, dhe kjo jo vet\u00ebm n\u00eb betej\u00ebn asketike t\u00eb secilit nga ne, por edhe n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e njer\u00ebzimit, n\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00ebsin\u00eb e tij. Ja dy shembuj: 1) Pas zbules\u00ebs n\u00eb Sina – \u201cUN\u00cb JAM AI Q\u00cb JAM\u201d – u desh\u00ebn pes\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb shekuj q\u00eb t\u00eb shfaqej te populli jude nj\u00eb num\u00ebr i vog\u00ebl njer\u00ebzish, t\u00eb aft\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb kuptuar p\u00ebrmbushjen e k\u00ebtyre fjal\u00ebve n\u00eb Dhiat\u00ebn e Re (shih Matth. 5.17-19); 2) kan\u00eb kaluar nj\u00ebzet shekuj q\u00eb nga momenti kur, n\u00eb Drit\u00ebn e pakrijuar n\u00eb malin Thavor, pastaj n\u00eb zbritjen e Shpirtit t\u00eb Shenjt\u00eb n\u00eb dhom\u00ebn e sip\u00ebrme t\u00eb Sionit, zbulesa e p\u00ebrkryer e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb si Trini e Shenjt\u00eb u dha n\u00eb bot\u00eb. Por, a e asimiluan shum\u00eb veta k\u00ebt\u00eb? Sa e v\u00ebshtir\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u2019i p\u00ebrshtatesh jet\u00ebs hyjnore! Madje edhe vet\u00eb ata q\u00eb duan ardhjen e Krishtit – t\u00eb Qengjit t\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb – nuk mund t\u00eb mbajn\u00eb plot\u00ebsin\u00eb e bekimit q\u00eb u dha mbi ta. Ata q\u00eb me zell t\u00eb zjarrt\u00eb besimi ngren\u00eb kryqin mbi supe dhe ndjekin Krishtin (shih Matth. 16.24), vuajn\u00eb gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tyre. Ngush\u00ebllohen me shpres\u00ebn se pas largimit nga kjo bot\u00eb, do t\u00eb hyjn\u00eb n\u00eb sfer\u00ebn e ndritshme \u2018ku \u00ebsht\u00eb Ai\u2019: \u201cN\u00eb m\u00eb sh\u00ebrben ndonj\u00eb, le t\u00eb m\u00eb vij\u00eb pas; dhe ku t\u00eb jem un\u00eb, atje do t\u00eb jet\u00eb sh\u00ebrb\u00ebtori im; dhe n\u00eb qoft\u00eb se m\u00eb sh\u00ebrben ndonj\u00eb, Ati do ta nderoj\u00eb\u201d (Jn. 12.26).<\/span><\/p>\n Sado i zjarrt\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb besimi i t\u00eb krishterit, puna p\u00ebr t\u00eb \u201cshnd\u00ebrruar trupin ton\u00eb t\u00eb varf\u00ebr\u201d n\u00eb \u201ct\u00eb nj\u00ebjtin me trupin e Zotit\u201d (shih Fil. 3.21), k\u00ebrkon p\u00ebr shum\u00eb vite luft\u00eb asketike, kreshm\u00eb dhe lutje pendimi. N\u00eb rrug\u00ebtimin e gjat\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebtij asketizmi zbulohen dimensionet, deri at\u00ebher\u00eb t\u00eb panjohura, t\u00eb r\u00ebnies s\u00eb Adamit. Ky vizion nuk u jepet t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve n\u00eb t\u00eb nj\u00ebjt\u00ebn mas\u00eb. Ka raste – sigurisht jo t\u00eb shpeshta – kur Shpirti Hyjnor e lejon t\u00eb kaloj\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb pendohet n\u00eb gremina t\u00eb pakalueshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb tjer\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Besimi n\u00eb Per\u00ebndin\u00eb duhet t\u00eb jet\u00eb i lir\u00eb nga \u00e7do ngurrim. Nuk m\u00eb kujtohet asnj\u00eb \u00e7ast kur, gjat\u00eb viteve q\u00eb kalova n\u00eb Athos, dyshimi t\u00eb ket\u00eb prekur mendjen apo zemr\u00ebn time. Por kishte edhe momente kur zemra ime, n\u00eb dhimbje nga nj\u00eb lutje e gjat\u00eb, i kthente kurrizin Per\u00ebndis\u00eb: \u201cOh, kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb p\u00ebrmbi fuqit\u00eb e mia!\u201d. Megjithat\u00eb, \u00e7aste t\u00eb ngjashme pat\u00ebn rrjedhoja jasht\u00ebzakonisht pozitive.<\/span><\/p>\n Mbi gjith\u00e7ka dhe m\u00eb shum\u00eb se \u00e7do gj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, ta duam Krishtin. Sa m\u00eb e plot\u00eb t\u00eb jet\u00eb dashuria, aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb e p\u00ebrjetojm\u00eb me dhimbje at\u00eb q\u00eb shkat\u00ebrron harmonin\u00eb. Edhe sikur t\u00eb zot\u00ebrosh nj\u00eb eksperienc\u00eb t\u00eb gjat\u00eb dhe nj\u00eb njohje t\u00eb thelluar t\u00eb \u201cmekanizmit\u201d t\u00eb k\u00ebtij lloj tundimi, p\u00ebrs\u00ebri me tmerr zbulojm\u00eb brenda nesh mund\u00ebsin\u00eb e nj\u00eb r\u00ebnieje t\u00eb re. Prandaj, le t\u00eb lutemi me ngash\u00ebrim dhe le t\u00eb th\u00ebrresim drejt Per\u00ebndis\u00eb: \u201cSh\u00ebrom\u00eb deri n\u00eb fund!\u201d Dhe Ai sh\u00ebron. At\u00ebher\u00eb, plot g\u00ebzim zemra jon\u00eb fal\u00ebnderon Per\u00ebndin\u00eb; dashuria q\u00eb deri at\u00ebher\u00eb ishte dukur e p\u00ebrsosur, rritet n\u00eb cil\u00ebsi dhe dyfishohet me nj\u00eb kuptim m\u00eb t\u00eb madh p\u00ebr mir\u00ebsin\u00eb e Zotit.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00cbsht\u00eb ve\u00e7ori e lutjes intensive t\u00eb t\u00ebrheq\u00eb si zemr\u00ebn dhe mendjen n\u00eb nj\u00eb l\u00ebvizje drejt p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb, n\u00eb at\u00eb pik\u00eb sa e kaluara harrohet dhe mendja \u00e7lirohet nga mendimet p\u00ebr t\u00eb ardhmen tok\u00ebsore. Shpirti ka vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb shqet\u00ebsim: t\u00eb mos e humbas\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb Per\u00ebndi, t\u00eb ndal\u00eb s\u00eb qeni i padenj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb. Sa m\u00eb tep\u00ebr t\u00ebrheqja jon\u00eb drejt t\u00eb Pafundmit forcohet, aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb p\u00ebrparimi drejt Tij na duket i ngadalt\u00eb. Nga nj\u00ebra an\u00eb, ndjenja shtyp\u00ebse e kot\u00ebsis\u00eb son\u00eb, dhe, nga ana tjet\u00ebr, soditja e madh\u00ebshtis\u00eb s\u00eb parr\u00ebfyeshme t\u00eb Atij q\u00eb ne k\u00ebrkojm\u00eb, e b\u00ebjn\u00eb t\u00eb pamundur gjykimin e sigurt p\u00ebr situat\u00ebn ton\u00eb reale: po i afrohemi Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, apo e kund\u00ebrta, po largohemi prej Tij? Njeriu p\u00ebrparon m\u00eb shpejt n\u00eb soditjen e shenjt\u00ebris\u00eb s\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, sesa n\u00eb kapacitetin e tij p\u00ebr t\u00eb pajtuar jet\u00ebn e tij me urdh\u00ebrimin. Nga kjo vjen p\u00ebrshtypja se distanca mes Per\u00ebndis\u00eb dhe nesh rritet pareshtur. N\u00eb k\u00ebrkimin shkencor, \u00e7do zbulim i ri nxjerr n\u00eb drit\u00eb injoranc\u00ebn ton\u00eb t\u00eb m\u00ebparshme dhe, duke mos qen\u00eb definitiv, e zgjeron deri diku fush\u00ebn e s\u00eb panjohur\u00ebs q\u00eb ndodhet para nesh.<\/span><\/p>\n Vizioni intelektual i q\u00ebllimit mund t\u00eb na jepet n\u00eb nj\u00eb \u00e7ast jasht\u00ebzakonisht t\u00eb shkurt\u00ebr, pavar\u00ebsisht mosh\u00ebs son\u00eb, por realizimi i asaj q\u00eb u parashikua me intuit\u00eb mund t\u00eb k\u00ebrkoj\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekjet e nj\u00eb jete t\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00eb, madje edhe at\u00ebher\u00eb, pa garancin\u00eb e suksesit. N\u00eb fush\u00ebn e shkenc\u00ebs si dhe n\u00eb at\u00eb t\u00eb artit, ekzistojn\u00eb disa pika referuese, t\u00eb cilat lejojn\u00eb t\u00eb jepet nj\u00eb gjykim; nuk ndodh e nj\u00ebjta gj\u00eb p\u00ebr shpirtin q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb t\u00ebrhequr drejt t\u00eb P\u00ebrjetshmit.<\/span><\/p>\n E dim\u00eb se artisti, sikund\u00ebr edhe filozofi e shkenc\u00ebtari, mund t\u00eb vuajn\u00eb realisht n\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekjen e tyre krijuese, ndon\u00ebse objektivat e tyre mund t\u00eb jen\u00eb jo dometh\u00ebn\u00ebse p\u00ebr syrin ton\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Kur mendja e t\u00eb krishterit n\u00eb lutje shk\u00ebputet nga i P\u00ebrjetshmi p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb mendimeve t\u00eb k\u00ebqija, nj\u00eb tmerr- kuptohet shpirt\u00ebror – e mb\u00ebrthen. Ta shoh\u00ebsh veten t\u00eb skllav\u00ebruar n\u00eb pasione t\u00eb turpshme, q\u00eb t\u00eb zmbrapsin nga Per\u00ebndia, kjo t\u00eb shkakton dhimbje ther\u00ebse. E prekur nga energjia e d\u00ebshp\u00ebrimit, lutja p\u00ebrqendrohet n\u00eb brend\u00ebsi, n\u00eb b\u00ebrtham\u00ebn m\u00eb intime t\u00eb qenies son\u00eb dhe merr form\u00ebn e nj\u00eb \u201cspazme\u201d: i t\u00ebr\u00eb njeriu tkurret n\u00eb vetvete, mblidhet fort sa nj\u00eb grusht. Lutja b\u00ebhet nj\u00eb thirrje pa fjal\u00eb. Sa p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb e mundimshme: ta dish veten t\u00eb zhytur n\u00eb grop\u00ebn e err\u00ebt t\u00eb m\u00ebkatit, i padenj\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb Shenjtin e t\u00eb shenjt\u00ebve! Nuk ka rrug\u00eb tjet\u00ebr m\u00eb t\u00eb leht\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb mundur pasionet.<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7do \u201cvep\u00ebr\u201d e krishter\u00eb lidhet medoemos me asketizmin; dashuria, kjo vep\u00ebr supreme mes t\u00eb gjithave, k\u00ebrkon p\u00ebrpjekjen m\u00eb t\u00eb madhe. N\u00eb realitetin e saj t\u00eb thell\u00eb, jeta e t\u00eb krishterit q\u00ebndron n\u00eb pasimin e Krishtit: \u201cPo vijm\u00eb edhe ne bashk\u00eb me ty\u201d (shih Jn. 21.2). N\u00eb baz\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj, \u00e7do besimtar p\u00ebrs\u00ebrit n\u00eb nj\u00eb shkall\u00eb apo n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr udh\u00ebn e Zotit. Por nuk e ngre me fuqit\u00eb e tij kryqin mbi supe p\u00ebr t\u00eb shkuar n\u00eb Gjethsemani dhe pastaj n\u00eb Golgotha, \u201csepse pa At\u00eb s\u2019mund t\u00eb b\u00ebjm\u00eb asgj\u00eb\u201d (shih Jn. 15.5). Ata q\u00eb e mor\u00ebn k\u00ebt\u00eb bekim t\u00eb friksh\u00ebm, kan\u00eb p\u00ebrshpejtuar ngjalljen; p\u00ebr shum\u00eb t\u00eb tjer\u00eb, \u00ebsht\u00eb besimi te m\u00ebshira e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Ja vullneti i Atit ton\u00eb qiellor p\u00ebr ne: t\u00ebr\u00eb t\u00eb vdekshmit duhet \u201ct\u00eb ngren\u00eb kryqin e tyre\u201d p\u00ebr t\u00eb trash\u00ebguar jet\u00ebn e p\u00ebrjetshme (shih Matth. 16.24-25). Ata q\u00eb i shmangen ngritjes s\u00eb kryqit nuk do t\u2019i shp\u00ebtojn\u00eb skllav\u00ebrimit t\u00eb pasioneve dhe do t\u00eb korrin \u201cprej trupit prishje\u201d (shih Gal. 6.8; Rom. 8.13). Dashuria p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin q\u00eb na u urdh\u00ebrua, lidhet me vuajtje tep\u00ebr t\u00eb thella, por dhe nj\u00eb ngush\u00ebllim qiellor i shoq\u00ebron (shih Mark. 10.29-30): shpirti gjall\u00ebrohet nga paqja q\u00eb Zoti u dha dishepujve t\u00eb Tij para se t\u00eb ngjitej n\u00eb Golgotha. Por kur shpirti i njeriut futet n\u00eb sfer\u00ebn e ndritshme t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb, Atin ton\u00eb, t\u00eb gjitha vuajtjet harrohen dhe, n\u00eb nj\u00eb form\u00eb t\u00eb pashpjegueshme, shpirti ndien lumturi t\u00eb thell\u00eb (shih Jn. 12.50; 17.3). N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb, gruaja, \u201csi t\u00eb lind\u00eb foshnj\u00ebn, s\u2019kujton m\u00eb shtr\u00ebngim, p\u00ebr g\u00ebzimin q\u00eb lindi nj\u00eb njeri n\u00eb bot\u00eb\u201d (Jn. 16.21). Po k\u00ebshtu, edhe m\u00eb tep\u00ebr g\u00ebzohet i krishteri kur n\u00eb vet\u00ebdije t\u00eb plot\u00eb dhe n\u00eb emocion t\u00eb thell\u00eb, nd\u00ebrgjegj\u00ebsohet p\u00ebr rilindjen e tij m\u00eb Per\u00ebndin\u00eb p\u00ebr p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsin\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n P\u00ebr besimtarin \u00ebsht\u00eb e natyrshme t\u00eb ruaj\u00eb me rigorozitet t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00ebn e zbules\u00ebs q\u00eb iu dha nga Kisha, aq sa mundet n\u00eb plot\u00ebsin\u00eb dhe integritetin e saj. P\u00ebrvoja shum\u00ebshekullore e Kish\u00ebs ka treguar n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb bind\u00ebse se \u00e7do devijim nga udha e urdh\u00ebrimeve ungjillore t\u00eb largon nga njohja e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb p\u00ebrjetshme (shih Jn. 12.50; 17.3). Nuk jemi n\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb arrijm\u00eb p\u00ebrsosm\u00ebrin\u00eb e urdh\u00ebrimeve, por ne duhet t\u00eb tregojm\u00eb zellin m\u00eb t\u00eb madh; pjesa q\u00eb mbetet p\u00ebrmbushet nga vet\u00eb Ai. N\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekjen ton\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb fituar dashurin\u00eb e Krishtit, na \u00ebsht\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb soditim lart\u00ebsin\u00eb e paarritshme t\u00eb shenjt\u00ebris\u00eb s\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, dhe nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht, p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb e Tij t\u00eb pamatshme. Fuqia e porosive ungjillore bazohet n\u00eb faktin se, ato t\u00eb futin natyrsh\u00ebm n\u00eb pafund\u00ebsin\u00eb e Qenies hyjnore. Shpirti gjendet n\u00eb nj\u00eb mrekullim t\u00eb lumur p\u00ebrpara Per\u00ebndis\u00eb; entuziazmohet nga madh\u00ebshtia e Tij e p\u00ebrjetshme; befasohet nga zem\u00ebrdhembshuria q\u00eb ka p\u00ebr ne me mish\u00ebrimin e tij. N\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka, Krishti \u00ebsht\u00eb m\u00ebsuesi i tij (shih Matth. 23.8); pa T\u00eb, njer\u00ebzimi do t\u00eb humbiste n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb pashmangshme n\u00eb err\u00ebsirat e pafundme t\u00eb lig\u00ebsis\u00eb s\u00eb tij. Krishti \u00ebsht\u00eb drita e bot\u00ebs. N\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet Tij e v\u00ebrteta u d\u00ebftua; \u201cdhe t\u00eb gjith\u00eb ne mor\u00ebm nga plot\u00ebsia e tij, dhe hir mbi hir\u201d (shih Jn. 8.12; 1.16-17).<\/span><\/p>\n I p\u00ebrulur \u201cPer\u00ebndia u rri kund\u00ebr mendjem\u00ebdhenjve, po t\u00eb p\u00ebrulurve u jep hir\u201d (I Petr. 5.5). Hiri \u00ebsht\u00eb jeta e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb. Ai e jep tek ata q\u00eb b\u00ebjn\u00eb t\u00eb pamundur\u00ebn p\u00ebr T\u2019i ngjasuar: \u201cKush t\u00eb ul\u00eb veten e tij, do t\u00eb lart\u00ebsohet\u201d (Matth. 23.12). Duke u bazuar n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb parim t\u00eb shkenc\u00ebs son\u00eb asketike, vihet re nj\u00eb tendenc\u00eb drejt vet\u00ebp\u00ebrul\u00ebsis\u00eb, drejt \u201czvog\u00eblimit ekstrem\u201d, dhe aspak drejt lart\u00ebsimit kryene\u00e7 t\u00eb vetes. Rruga jon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo e asketizmit apofatik, n\u00ebp\u00ebrmjet nj\u00eb \u201ckenoze\u201d (zbrazje) si ajo e Krishtit, i Cili u p\u00ebrul deri n\u00eb vdekje mbi kryq (shih Fil. 2.5-9). Sa m\u00eb posht\u00eb t\u00eb zbresim, aq m\u00eb shum\u00eb pastrohemi rr\u00ebnj\u00ebsisht nga pasojat e r\u00ebnies krenare t\u00eb st\u00ebratit ton\u00eb Adam. Dhe kur zemra jon\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb pastruar (shih Matth. 5.8), Ati, Biri dhe Shpirti i Shenjt\u00eb do t\u00eb vendosin te ne banes\u00ebn e tyre, dhe ne do t\u00eb hyjm\u00eb n\u00eb realitetin e patundur t\u00eb Mbret\u00ebris\u00eb s\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, ku madh\u00ebshtia e pafundme \u00ebsht\u00eb pandashm\u00ebrisht e bashkuar me p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb dhe but\u00ebsin\u00eb, q\u00eb edhe k\u00ebto jan\u00eb gjithashtu t\u00eb pafundme.<\/span><\/p>\n Mish\u00ebrimi i Fjal\u00ebs Per\u00ebndi \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithashtu nj\u00eb kenoz\u00eb, ontologjikisht e natyrshme p\u00ebr dashurin\u00eb hyjnore. Ati zbrazet t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht me lindjen e Birit. Biri nuk p\u00ebrvet\u00ebson asgj\u00eb, por l\u00eb gjith\u00e7ka tek Ati. P\u00ebr sa i p\u00ebrket kenoz\u00ebs son\u00eb, ajo gjen shprehje kur ne braktisim \u00e7do gj\u00eb t\u00eb shtrenjt\u00eb mbi tok\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb zbatuar porosin\u00eb: \u201cN\u00ebse dikush do t\u00eb m\u00eb pasoj\u00eb, le t\u00eb mohoj\u00eb veten dhe t\u00eb ngrej\u00eb kryqin. […] Kush do n\u00eb fakt q\u00eb t\u00eb shp\u00ebtoj\u00eb jet\u00ebn do ta humbas\u00eb, por kush do ta humbas\u00eb p\u00ebr shkakun tim, do ta gjej\u00eb\u201d (Matth. 16.24-25). Dhe p\u00ebrs\u00ebri: \u201cK\u00ebshtu pra, gjithsecili prej jush q\u00eb nuk mohon pasurin\u00eb e tij, nuk mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebsi im\u201d (Lluk. 14.33). Kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb rruga e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb s\u00eb gjall\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Dhe ja, nj\u00eb m\u00ebsues i Ligjit […], i tha Jisuit p\u00ebr ta v\u00ebn\u00eb n\u00eb prov\u00eb: \u201cM\u00ebsues, \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb b\u00ebj q\u00eb t\u00eb trash\u00ebgoj jet\u00ebn e p\u00ebrjetshme? Edhe ai i tha, \u00e7\u2019\u00ebsht\u00eb shkruar n\u00eb ligj; si lexon? Edhe iu p\u00ebrgjigj dhe tha: T\u00eb duash Zotin, Per\u00ebndin\u00eb t\u00ebnd me gjith\u00eb zemr\u00ebn t\u00ebnde dhe me gjith\u00eb shpirtin t\u00ebnd dhe me gjith\u00eb fuqin\u00eb t\u00ebnde dhe me gjith\u00eb mendjen t\u00ebnde, edhe t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin t\u00ebnd.\u201d Jisui i tha: U p\u00ebrgjigje drejt; b\u00ebj k\u00ebt\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb rrosh [jet\u00ebn e p\u00ebrjetshme n\u00eb Per\u00ebndin\u00eb]\u201d (shih Lluk. 10.25-27). Pyetjes s\u00eb m\u00ebsuesit t\u00eb ligjit: \u201cPo kush \u00ebsht\u00eb i af\u00ebrmi im?\u201d, Zoti iu p\u00ebrgjigj me paravolin\u00eb e Samaritanit t\u00eb mir\u00eb, kuptimi thelb\u00ebsor i s\u00eb cil\u00ebs, n\u00eb at\u00eb periudh\u00eb, gjendej n\u00eb planin e porosis\u00eb: \u201cDoni armiqt\u00eb tuaj, b\u00ebjuni mir\u00eb […] pa pasur shpres\u00eb m\u00eb; paga juaj do t\u00eb jet\u00eb e shumt\u00eb, dhe do t\u00eb jeni bijt\u00eb e t\u00eb Lartit\u201d (Lluk. 6.35).<\/span><\/p>\n K\u00ebt\u00eb gjendje t\u00eb shpirtit ton\u00eb kur na \u00ebsht\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb q\u00eb lartazi hiri p\u00ebr t\u00eb dashur armiqt\u00eb tan\u00eb sh\u00ebn Siluani1 e p\u00ebrshkruante si nj\u00eb eksperienc\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb hyjnore n\u00eb kufijt\u00eb e k\u00ebsaj jete. Ai thoshte dhe shkruante: \u201cAi q\u00eb nuk i do armiqt\u00eb, ende nuk e ka njohur Per\u00ebndin\u00eb si\u00e7 duhet ta njoh\u00eb.\u201d<\/span><\/p>\n P\u00ebr ta karakterizuar k\u00ebt\u00eb hir, do t\u00eb m\u00eb lejohej t\u00eb shtoja k\u00ebt\u00eb: Ai q\u00eb u ndri\u00e7ua nga Drita e pakrijuar e Shpirtit t\u00eb Shenjt\u00eb, jeton thell\u00eb brenda vetes kalimin \u201cnga vdekja n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e amshuar\u201d; krejt natyrsh\u00ebm, ai ka dhembshuri p\u00ebr t\u00ebr\u00eb ata q\u00eb u privuan nga kjo e mir\u00eb. Duke qen\u00eb jasht\u00eb vdekjes, ky njeri \u00ebsht\u00eb \u00e7liruar nga frika e fatkeq\u00ebsive dhe njeh mendimin e Atit p\u00ebr veten e tij: \u201cTi, biri im, ti je p\u00ebrher\u00eb bashk\u00eb me mua, dhe gjith\u00eb t\u00eb miat jan\u00eb t\u00eb tuat\u201d (Lluk. 15.31). Dhe n\u00ebse na u dha gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb zot\u00ebron Ati, \u00ebsht\u00eb e natyrshme p\u00ebr shpirtin t\u00eb \u201cb\u00ebj\u00eb gosti dhe t\u00eb g\u00ebzoj\u00eb\u201d, kur v\u00ebllai q\u00eb ishte i vdekur, kthehet n\u00eb jet\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb marr\u00eb pjes\u00eb n\u00eb lavdin\u00eb e paprishshme n\u00eb Mbret\u00ebrin\u00eb e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb s\u00eb gjall\u00eb (shih Lluk. 15.32).<\/span><\/p>\n T\u00eb jesh i krishter\u00eb, do t\u00eb thot\u00eb t\u00eb besosh n\u00eb ngjalljen e t\u00eb vdekurve, t\u00eb shpresosh bir\u00ebsimin nga Ati yn\u00eb qiellor, t\u00eb marr\u00ebsh trajt\u00ebn e t\u00eb qenit hyjnor, t\u00eb b\u00ebhesh p\u00ebrmes dhurat\u00ebs s\u00eb dashuris\u00eb s\u00eb Atit ashtu si Ai \u00ebsht\u00eb nga esenca e tij, d.m.th. nj\u00eb per\u00ebndi. K\u00ebto jan\u00eb premtimet q\u00eb Per\u00ebndia, Ati yn\u00eb, na b\u00ebri ne q\u00eb besuam n\u00eb Jisu Krishtin si Biri unik dhe i bashk\u00ebsubstancsh\u00ebm me Atin. \u00cbsht\u00eb m\u00ebkat i madh ta reduktosh zbules\u00ebn n\u00eb lidhje me njeriun – q\u00eb na u dha n\u00eb Shpirtin e Shenjt\u00eb – ashtu si\u00e7 u konceptua nga Per\u00ebndia para se t\u00eb krijohej bota. Nd\u00ebshkimi i k\u00ebtij m\u00ebkati – t\u00eb mos besosh n\u00eb ngjalljen – mban nj\u00eb shenj\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb: duke hedhur posht\u00eb dhurat\u00ebn e Krijuesit ton\u00eb, d\u00ebnojm\u00eb veten. P\u00ebrse pra ta hedhim posht\u00eb? Para s\u00eb gjithash, kjo mund t\u00eb ndodh\u00eb, pasi dhurata e Atit fitohet me p\u00ebrpjekje t\u00eb madhe, me shum\u00eb vuajtje. Kjo tem\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb tep\u00ebr e gjer\u00eb. Kush do t\u00eb jet\u00eb n\u00eb gjendje t\u2019ua paraqes\u00eb qart\u00eb njer\u00ebzve q\u00eb kan\u00eb nivele t\u00eb ndryshme nd\u00ebrgjegjeje dhe t\u00eb kuptuari? Dhe kush do t\u00eb mund t\u00eb p\u00ebrshkruaj\u00eb n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrshtatshme mrekullimin e shpirtit ton\u00eb, i cili edhe ai \u00ebsht\u00eb plot\u00ebsisht i ve\u00e7ant\u00eb, kur Drita e hyjnis\u00eb hap p\u00ebrpara nesh udh\u00ebt e t\u00ebrurta t\u00eb Per\u00ebndis\u00eb s\u00eb gjall\u00eb?<\/span><\/p>\n Megjithat\u00eb, si mund ta besojm\u00eb mund\u00ebsin\u00eb e ngjalljes p\u00ebr amshim pas vdekjes trupore? Gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb p\u00ebrjetojm\u00eb duket pik\u00ebrisht e lidhur me trupin, me perceptimet e tij. Madje edhe mendimin ton\u00eb e ndiejm\u00eb si v\u00ebnien n\u00eb l\u00ebvizje t\u00eb nj\u00eb lloj energjie n\u00eb materialitetin e trurit dhe zemr\u00ebs son\u00eb… Nuk u \u00ebsht\u00eb dh\u00ebn\u00eb t\u00eb gjith\u00ebve t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetojn\u00eb gjendjet e lutjes, gjat\u00eb t\u00eb cilave shpirti \u00e7lirohet nga lidhjet materiale, nga kushtet q\u00eb lidhen me koh\u00ebn dhe hap\u00ebsir\u00ebn. I besojm\u00eb shkenc\u00ebs me besim naiv, me gjith\u00eb relativitetin e saj t\u00eb duksh\u00ebm. Me synim p\u00ebr t\u00eb asimiluar zhvillimet e fundit, qysh n\u00eb vitet e rinis\u00eb son\u00eb, k\u00ebsaj pune i kushtojm\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekje shum\u00ebvje\u00e7are. N\u00eb format e tij m\u00eb t\u00eb larta, asketizmi shpirt\u00ebror shkon pakrahasimisht m\u00eb larg se \u00e7do shkenc\u00eb plot\u00ebsisht njer\u00ebzore, por n\u00eb fazat e tij fillestare \u00ebsht\u00eb i thjesht\u00eb dhe madje t\u00eb sjell g\u00ebzim. Le t\u00eb p\u00ebrpiqemi t\u00eb shpjegojm\u00eb arsyet e v\u00ebrteta p\u00ebr t\u00eb cilat njer\u00ebzit refuzojn\u00eb t\u00eb ndjekin Krishtin – t\u00eb V\u00ebrtet\u00ebn.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cEdhe n\u00ebse predikohet Krishti se u ngjall s\u00eb vdekurish, si thon\u00eb disa veta nd\u00ebr ju se nuk ka ngjallje t\u00eb vdekurish? Edhe n\u00ebse nuk ka ngjallje t\u00eb vdekurish, as Krishti nuk u ngjall. Edhe n\u00ebse nuk u ngjall Krishti, pa fjal\u00eb predikimi yn\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb i kot\u00eb, dhe besimi yn\u00eb i kot\u00eb. […] N\u00eb shpresofshim n\u00eb Krishtin vet\u00ebm n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb, jemi m\u00eb t\u00eb mjer\u00ebt e gjith\u00eb njer\u00ebzve. […] P\u00ebrse edhe ne jemi n\u00eb rrezik n\u00eb \u00e7do or\u00eb? P\u00ebrdit\u00eb vdes […]\u201d (I Kor. 15). \u201cEdhe at\u00ebher\u00eb vijn\u00eb tek ai Jakovi dhe Joani, t\u00eb bijt\u00eb e Zevedheut, duke th\u00ebn\u00eb: M\u00ebsues, duam t\u00eb na b\u00ebsh at\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb k\u00ebrkojm\u00eb. Edhe ai u tha atyre: \u00c7\u2019doni t\u2019ju b\u00ebj un\u00eb juve? Edhe ata i than\u00eb: Jepna t\u00eb rrim\u00eb nj\u00ebri nga e djathta jote, dhe nj\u00ebri nga e majta jote, n\u00eb lavdin\u00eb t\u00ebnde. Po Jisui u tha atyre: S\u2019dini se \u00e7\u2019lypni. A mundeni t\u00eb pini kup\u00ebn q\u00eb pi un\u00eb, dhe t\u00eb pag\u00ebzoheni me pag\u00ebzimin q\u00eb pag\u00ebzohem un\u00eb? Edhe ata i than\u00eb: Mundemi. Edhe Jisui u tha atyre: Kup\u00ebn, q\u00eb pi un\u00eb, do ta pini, dhe me pag\u00ebzimin, q\u00eb pag\u00ebzohem un\u00eb, do t\u00eb pag\u00ebzoheni?\u201d (Mark. 10.35-39).<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cEdhe ai u nda nga ata sa nj\u00eb t\u00eb hedhur guri, dhe ra n\u00eb gjunj\u00eb e falej, duke th\u00ebn\u00eb: O At\u00eb, n\u00ebse do, largoje k\u00ebt\u00eb potir prej meje; ve\u00e7 jo d\u00ebshira ime, po jotja le t\u00eb b\u00ebhet. Edhe iu duk nj\u00eb engj\u00ebll prej qielli duke i dh\u00ebn\u00eb fuqi atij. Edhe si erdhi n\u00eb agoni falej m\u00eb tep\u00ebr. Edhe djersa e tij u b\u00eb si t\u00eb ngrira pikash gjaku duke r\u00ebn\u00eb mbi dh\u00e9\u201d (shih Lluk. 22.42-44).<\/span><\/p>\n \u00c7far\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb realisht kjo kup\u00eb e Krishtit? Nuk e kuptojm\u00eb dot thell\u00ebsin\u00eb e k\u00ebtij misteri. N\u00eb p\u00ebrpjekjen ton\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb ndjekur Krishtin duke ruajtur porosit\u00eb e Tij, ne pim\u00eb vazhdimisht dhe pashmangshm\u00ebrisht nj\u00eb lloj kupe, por at\u00eb q\u00eb Krishti kishte parasysh, at\u00eb q\u00eb jetonte \u201cn\u00eb at\u00eb or\u00eb\u201d, ne nuk e kuptojm\u00eb plot\u00ebsisht. Megjithat\u00eb, di\u00e7ka e ngjashme ndodh padyshim me ne, sikurse e tha ai vet\u00eb: \u201cKup\u00ebn q\u00eb un\u00eb do t\u00eb pi, ju do ta pini\u201d (Mark. 10.39). E mistershme \u00ebsht\u00eb kupa e Krishtit, por edhe kupa jon\u00eb, edhe ajo \u00ebsht\u00eb e fsheht\u00eb p\u00ebr syt\u00eb e t\u00eb tjer\u00ebve.<\/span><\/p>\n \u201cN\u00eb shpresofshim n\u00eb Krishtin vet\u00ebm n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb jet\u00eb, jemi m\u00eb t\u00eb mjer\u00ebt e t\u00eb gjith\u00eb njer\u00ebzve\u201d, tha Pavli (I Kor. 15.19). Me t\u00eb v\u00ebrtet\u00eb, k\u00ebshtu \u00ebsht\u00eb. Po pse \u00ebsht\u00eb e pashpjegueshme kjo fatkeq\u00ebsi e lumur p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb nuk e kan\u00eb ndjekur Krishtin? N\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi, reagimet e frym\u00ebs s\u00eb krishter\u00eb jan\u00eb thell\u00ebsisht t\u00eb ndryshme p\u00ebrkundrejt gjith\u00e7kaje q\u00eb ndodh rrotull nesh, shpesh edhe diametralisht n\u00eb kund\u00ebrshtim me frym\u00ebn e bijve t\u00eb k\u00ebsaj bote. Ja nj\u00eb shembull: N\u00eb \u00e7astin kur Juda doli nga \u201cdhoma e sip\u00ebrme\u201d e Sionit p\u00ebr t\u00eb dor\u00ebzuar Zotin n\u00eb kryq\u00ebzim, Ai \u00e7eli goj\u00ebn dhe tha: Tani u lavd\u00ebrua i Biri i njeriut\u201d (Jn. 13.31). K\u00ebshtu, gjat\u00eb gjith\u00eb Ungjillit, konstatojm\u00eb se Zoti jetonte n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr plan t\u00eb qenies, ku t\u00eb gjitha reagimet kalojn\u00eb n\u00eb nj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr priz\u00ebm. Ai pra q\u00eb do t\u00eb dep\u00ebrtoj\u00eb, n\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb mister, edhe pse pjes\u00ebrisht, duhet t\u00eb marr\u00eb kryqin e tij mbi supe e t\u00eb jepet t\u00ebr\u00ebsisht n\u00eb vullnetin e Atit qiellor. Nuk ka shteg tjet\u00ebr. Aq m\u00eb tep\u00ebr q\u00eb konflikti mes Krishtit dhe bot\u00ebs nuk ka fund.<\/span><\/p>\n Kam dashuri t\u00eb thell\u00eb dhe mir\u00ebnjohje p\u00ebr Kish\u00ebn, pran\u00eb s\u00eb cil\u00ebs m\u2019u zbulua hyjnia e Jisu Krishtit dhe ikona e njer\u00ebzimit q\u00eb Ai ka shfaqur. K\u00ebt\u00eb \u201cikon\u00eb\u201d mund ta shikojm\u00eb n\u00eb form\u00eb t\u00eb reduktuar n\u00eb jet\u00ebn e disa personave, po edhe te vetja. Realizimi i saj i plot\u00eb i p\u00ebrket jet\u00ebs s\u00eb ardhshme, por disa qasje t\u00eb rralla q\u00eb iu b\u00ebn\u00eb gjat\u00eb historis\u00eb ngjall\u00ebn entuziazmin e shpirtit. \u00cbsht\u00eb normale p\u00ebr nj\u00eb t\u00eb krishter\u00eb t\u00eb ket\u00eb etje p\u00ebr t\u2019i ngjasuar Zotit, dhe p\u00ebr t\u00eb p\u00ebrqafuar bot\u00ebn e dashuris\u00eb s\u00eb Tij si\u00e7 e p\u00ebrqafoi Ai, e t\u00eb mos jet\u00eb armiku i askujt, nj\u00ebsoj si Ai, d.m.th. t\u00eb jet\u00eb i lir\u00eb nga ferri i urrejtjes ndaj cilitdo, n\u00eb p\u00ebrputhje me urdh\u00ebrimin e Tij: \u201cPor un\u00eb po ju them juve: Doni armiqt\u00eb tuaj, bekoni ata q\u00eb ju mallkojn\u00eb ju, b\u00ebjuni mir\u00eb atyre q\u00eb ju kan\u00eb m\u00ebri ju, dhe faluni p\u00ebr ata q\u00eb ju b\u00ebjn\u00eb keq e ju ndjekin ju; q\u00eb t\u00eb b\u00ebheni bij t\u00eb Atit tuaj q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb n\u00eb qiej\u201d (Matth. 5.44-45). Por asnj\u00eb nga bijt\u00eb e Adamit nuk mund t\u00eb jetoj\u00eb k\u00ebshtu me forcat e tij; kjo \u00ebsht\u00eb e mundur vet\u00ebm at\u00ebher\u00eb ku Fryma e Shenjt\u00eb mbush zemr\u00ebn e njeriut me p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsin\u00eb q\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb e pandar\u00eb. Pa Shpirtin e Shenjt\u00eb, s\u2019mund t\u00eb ruajm\u00eb urdh\u00ebrimet e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb (shih Jn. 15.5)<\/span><\/p>\n Po, etja p\u00ebr t\u2019u b\u00ebr\u00eb i ngjash\u00ebm me Zotin \u00ebsht\u00eb e natyrshme p\u00ebr t\u00eb krishterin. Ndon\u00ebse, \u201ce ngusht\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb dera dhe e shtr\u00ebnguar udha\u201d q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7on n\u00eb jet\u00ebn hyjnore (shih Matth. 7.14). P\u00ebr t\u00eb shp\u00ebtuar nga l\u00ebkura e panevojshme, gjarpri heq l\u00ebkur\u00ebn duke kaluar nga plasaritje t\u00eb vogla; po k\u00ebshtu, p\u00ebr t\u00eb shp\u00ebtuar, \u00e7do njeri duhet t\u00eb kap\u00ebrcej\u00eb nj\u00eb \u201cport\u00eb\u201d shum\u00eb t\u00eb ngusht\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb zhvishet nga \u201ctunika prej l\u00ebkure\u201d, q\u00eb veshi me r\u00ebnien (Gjen. 3.21).<\/span><\/p>\n Ai q\u00eb tha: \u201cUn\u00eb jam Udha, e V\u00ebrteta dhe jeta\u201d (Jn. 14.6) na dha k\u00ebt\u00eb urdh\u00ebrim: \u201cN\u00eb ardht\u00eb ndonj\u00eb tek un\u00eb dhe nuk m\u00ebrzit t\u00eb atin e t\u00eb \u00ebm\u00ebn e gruan e djemt\u00eb e v\u00ebllez\u00ebrit e motrat, po edhe shpirtin e tij, nuk mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebsi im. Edhe ai q\u00eb nuk mban n\u00eb krah\u00eb kryqin e tij e s\u2019vjen pas meje nuk mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb nx\u00ebn\u00ebsi im\u201d (Lluk. 14.26-27,33; shih Matth. 16.24-25). Sipas k\u00ebtyre fjal\u00ebve kuptojm\u00eb se \u201ckush \u00ebsht\u00eb Ai\u201d (shih Matth. 21.10). N\u00eb qoft\u00eb se n\u00eb qenien e tij hipostatike Krishti nuk do t\u00eb ishte i bashk\u00ebsubstancsh\u00ebm me Atin dhe Shpirtin e Shenjt\u00eb, n\u00ebse nuk do t\u00eb ishte Per\u00ebndi i shfaqur n\u00eb mishin ton\u00eb, por vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb qenie e krijuar e ngjashme me ne, at\u00ebher\u00eb, ontologjikisht, ide t\u00eb tilla nuk do t\u2019i vinin n\u00eb mendje. N\u00ebse Jisu Krishti nuk do t\u00eb ishte Per\u00ebndi nga vet\u00eb natyra e Tij, do t\u00eb mjaftonte nga ky urdh\u00ebrim i vet\u00ebm q\u00eb gjith\u00eb pjesa tjet\u00ebr e Ungjillit t\u00eb b\u00ebhej e papranueshme. P\u00ebrvoja dymij\u00ebvje\u00e7are e Kish\u00ebs konfirmon n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00eb t\u00eb pandryshueshme \u201cmisterin e madh t\u00eb besimit: Per\u00ebndia u shfaq n\u00eb mish, u v\u00ebrtetua nga Shpirti\u201d (shih I Tim. 3.16). Duke e pranuar me an\u00eb t\u00eb besimit si Zot i p\u00ebrjetsh\u00ebm, Krishti u b\u00eb p\u00ebr ne Drita e p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb; fjal\u00ebt e Tij na hapin thell\u00ebsit\u00eb e pap\u00ebrfytyrueshme t\u00eb Qenies hyjnore.<\/span><\/p>\n N\u00eb Providenc\u00ebn e Tij t\u00eb pamas\u00eb, Per\u00ebndia m\u00eb lejoi t\u00eb ulesha n\u00eb k\u00ebmb\u00ebt e Siluanit, te ky i zgjedhur i t\u00eb Shum\u00eblartit. Duke ndjekur me p\u00ebrkushtim asketizmin e tij, duke d\u00ebgjuar me etje m\u00ebsimdh\u00ebniet e tij, un\u00eb, m\u00eb i par\u00ebnd\u00ebsishmi i njer\u00ebzve, munda t\u00eb takoja misterin e udh\u00ebs q\u00eb t\u00eb \u00e7on n\u00eb shp\u00ebtim. N\u00eb fund t\u00eb dit\u00ebve t\u00eb mia, marr riskun t\u00eb zbuloj at\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb p\u00ebrpara e fshihja me fanatiz\u00ebm. K\u00ebtu flas n\u00eb limitet dhe format n\u00eb t\u00eb cilat m\u2019u dha t\u00eb jetoja Per\u00ebndin\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Do t\u2019ju tregoj n\u00eb faqet e tjera t\u00eb librit hapin tim t\u00eb tmerrsh\u00ebm e t\u00eb gabuar: largimin tim t\u00eb vullnetsh\u00ebm dhe kryelart\u00eb nga zbulesa q\u00eb na u dha m\u00eb Krishtin. Por Ati – i bekuar qoft\u00eb emri i Tij p\u00ebrjet\u00eb – m\u00eb zbuloi Birin e Tij n\u00eb Drit\u00ebn q\u00eb nuk per\u00ebndon dhe prej aty, m\u00eb dha t\u00eb ndieja m\u00ebkatin tim me nj\u00eb intensitet t\u00eb till\u00eb, saq\u00eb vajtova p\u00ebr dekada, me fytyr\u00ebn p\u00ebrdh\u00e9, n\u00eb d\u00ebshp\u00ebrimin q\u00eb m\u00eb shkaktoi posht\u00ebrsia ime. Largimi im nga Per\u00ebndia m\u2019u paraqit si nj\u00eb neveri sk\u00ebterr\u00eb dhe ndieja thell\u00ebsisht turp p\u00ebr veten. U b\u00ebra i ndyr\u00eb n\u00eb syt\u00eb e mi. E p\u00ebr\u00e7moja veten, dhe p\u00ebr\u00e7mimi im gjeti nj\u00eb shok udhe: urrejtjen. Nuk dua t\u00eb them q\u00eb urreja atin dhe n\u00ebn\u00ebn time, apo t\u00eb af\u00ebrmit dhe miqt\u00eb e mi. Mjaftonte sprova e urrejtjes p\u00ebr veten. N\u00eb nj\u00eb far\u00eb m\u00ebnyre, nuk i mendoja t\u00eb tjer\u00ebt. Malli im p\u00ebr Per\u00ebndin\u00eb m\u00eb shkaktonte nj\u00eb dhimbje t\u00eb atill\u00eb, sa harroja \u00e7do gj\u00eb tjet\u00ebr, duke q\u00ebndruar i vet\u00ebm, ball\u00eb p\u00ebr ball\u00eb m\u00eb At\u00eb. Nuk e di n\u00ebse Zoti ma ka falur plot\u00ebsisht m\u00ebkatin, por un\u00eb nuk mund t\u2019ia fal vetes at\u00eb q\u00eb b\u00ebra. Me tragjedin\u00eb time personale jetoja at\u00eb t\u00eb st\u00ebratit Adam n\u00eb trash\u00ebgimin\u00eb q\u00eb u p\u00ebr\u00e7ua gjat\u00eb shekujve, nga brezi n\u00eb brez, te banor\u00ebt e tok\u00ebs. Pik\u00ebrisht p\u00ebrmes k\u00ebsaj udhe erdhi lutja p\u00ebr mbar\u00eb bot\u00ebn.<\/span><\/p>\n Jetoja spontanisht, pa u p\u00ebrpjekur t\u00eb analizoja at\u00eb \u00e7ka ndodhte me mua. Nuk isha i prir\u00eb t\u00eb v\u00ebzhgoja veten time. Braktisesha thjesht n\u00eb fuqin\u00eb e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, i Cili derdhej mbi mua. Por s\u2019guxoja t\u00eb mendoja se ishte Ai q\u00eb lutej brenda meje; e ndieja k\u00ebt\u00eb forc\u00eb sikur t\u00eb ishte e imja. Vet\u00ebm at\u00ebher\u00eb kur flaka e pendimit u t\u00ebrhoq nga un\u00eb, kuptova se ishte Krishti q\u00eb m\u00eb kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb bekimin t\u2019i afrohesha Atij.<\/span><\/p>\n Vet\u00ebm Per\u00ebndia, dhuruesi i gjith\u00eb t\u00eb mirave, njeh realisht se n\u00eb cil\u00ebn mas\u00eb shp\u00ebrndau tek un\u00eb g\u00ebzimin p\u00ebr t\u00eb njohur dashurin\u00eb e Tij. Fal\u00eb sh\u00ebn Siluanit, syt\u00eb e mi shpirt\u00ebror\u00eb u hap\u00ebn dhe un\u00eb zbulova se urdh\u00ebrimi i Krishtit – t\u00eb duash Per\u00ebndin\u00eb deri n\u00eb urrejtjen e vetes – na zbulon ligjin e dashuris\u00eb hyjnore, t\u00eb dashuris\u00eb me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn Ai vet\u00eb na ka dashur.<\/span><\/p>\n N\u00ebse porosit\u00eb e Krishtit, p\u00ebr t\u00eb dashur Per\u00ebndin\u00eb me gjith\u00eb qenien dhe t\u00eb af\u00ebrmin si veten do t\u00eb vinin nga ndonj\u00eb profet, nga nj\u00eb njeri i zakonsh\u00ebm sipas natyr\u00ebs s\u00eb tij t\u00eb krijuar, k\u00ebto do t\u00eb privoheshin nga kuptimi q\u00eb ne k\u00ebrkojm\u00eb. Por ne i mor\u00ebm nga Per\u00ebndia, Krijuesi i t\u00eb gjitha gj\u00ebrave. E dim\u00eb se k\u00ebto urdh\u00ebrime jan\u00eb nj\u00eb vet\u00ebzbulim i Per\u00ebndis\u00eb p\u00ebr ne. Mund t\u2019i zbatojm\u00eb vet\u00ebm me k\u00ebt\u00eb kusht, q\u00eb \u201ct\u00eb zhvishemi nga njeriu i vjet\u00ebr\u201d (shih Kol. 3.9) dhe \u201ct\u00eb veshim Njeriun e ri\u201d (Ef. 4.24), Krishtin, q\u00eb zbriti nga qielli (shih I Kor. 15.47). Kur jetojm\u00eb n\u00eb frym\u00ebn e urdh\u00ebresave ungjillore, hyjnizohemi, sepse jeta e p\u00ebrjetshme dep\u00ebrton p\u00ebrbrenda nesh. Ai na ka urdh\u00ebruar t\u00eb duam. Pra dashuria e unifikon qenien. Plot\u00ebsia e dashuris\u00eb na drejton n\u00eb at\u00eb pik\u00eb, sa t\u00eb duam deri n\u00eb harrim t\u00eb vetes. \u201cDeri n\u00eb harrim t\u00eb vetes\u201d, d.m.th. deri n\u00eb urrejtjen e vetes.<\/span><\/p>\n Kur dikush lutet me intensitet, p\u00ebrmbajtja e jet\u00ebs s\u00eb tij i ngjan nj\u00eb oqeani t\u00eb pakufish\u00ebm uji t\u00eb gjall\u00eb. Shpirti yn\u00eb pasurohet pafund\u00ebsisht, jo aq nga p\u00ebrftimi i fjal\u00ebve dhe i koncepteve t\u00eb reja, sa nga thellimi i eksperiencave tashm\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrjetuara dhe t\u00eb asimiluara. P\u00ebr sa u fol m\u00eb sip\u00ebr, jam p\u00ebrpjekur t\u00eb jap disa shembuj t\u00eb luft\u00ebs asketike, nj\u00ebkoh\u00ebsisht t\u00eb holl\u00ebsishme e t\u00eb thell\u00eb, kund\u00ebr pasioneve q\u00eb na vrasin. P\u00ebr vite me radh\u00eb – madje p\u00ebr dekada – l\u00ebkundemi mes vuajtjes dhe ngush\u00ebllimit q\u00eb vjen nga lart; k\u00ebto l\u00ebkundje e edukojn\u00eb shpirtin, e b\u00ebjn\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb aft\u00eb p\u00ebr forma t\u00eb reja mendimi dhe perceptimi t\u00eb qenies n\u00eb p\u00ebrgjith\u00ebsi. Mendja m\u00ebsohet t\u00eb mendoj\u00eb, edhe pa e par\u00eb, p\u00ebr bot\u00ebn e t\u00ebr\u00eb. P\u00ebr sa i p\u00ebrket zemr\u00ebs, ajo e mban n\u00eb vetvete – fal\u00eb lutjes dhe me dhimbjen e dashuris\u00eb – k\u00ebt\u00eb bot\u00eb n\u00eb t\u00ebr\u00ebsin\u00eb e saj. N\u00eb nj\u00eb akt t\u00eb till\u00eb sinteze shpirt\u00ebrore, lutja e t\u00eb krishterit arrin pjekurin\u00eb e saj, kur ai q\u00ebndron para Per\u00ebndis\u00eb me gjith\u00eb mendjen dhe zemr\u00ebn e tij (shih Lluk. 10.27), kur t\u00eb dyja jan\u00eb t\u00eb lidhura ngusht\u00eb. Duke qen\u00eb e pamundur p\u00ebr ta shprehur me fjal\u00eb at\u00eb q\u00eb mban n\u00eb vetvete, asketi lutet shpesh edhe pa fjal\u00eb, por me vet\u00ebdijen globale t\u00eb gjith\u00e7kaje q\u00eb njeh; ai mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb krejt\u00ebsisht i thithur nga Per\u00ebndia sa harron edhe tok\u00ebn. N\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb p\u00ebrshkrim, q\u00eb n\u00eb pamje t\u00eb par\u00eb ngjan i cop\u00ebtuar, t\u00eb mekanizmave t\u00eb jet\u00ebs s\u00eb mendjes njer\u00eb zore, fol\u00ebm p\u00ebr kalimin progresiv nga forma individuale e ekzistenc\u00ebs n\u00eb m\u00ebnyr\u00ebn e t\u00eb qenit hipostatik (personal) n\u00eb Per\u00ebndin\u00eb. \u00cbsht\u00eb e pamundur t\u00eb jap\u00ebsh nj\u00eb p\u00ebrshkrim analitik dhe sistematik t\u00eb ngjitjes drejt k\u00ebsaj jete. K\u00ebt\u00eb nuk e gjejm\u00eb as te veprat e Et\u00ebrve t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenj t\u00eb Kish\u00ebs. Nj\u00eb sistemim racional i k\u00ebtij materiali \u00ebsht\u00eb i mundsh\u00ebm deri n\u00eb nj\u00eb far\u00eb shkalle n\u00eb veprat e teologjis\u00eb akademike, por kurr\u00eb dhe n\u00eb asnj\u00eb trajt\u00eb tjet\u00ebr n\u00eb fjal\u00ebt e gjalla q\u00eb shtjellojn\u00eb jet\u00ebn e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb t\u00eb shpirtit ton\u00eb.<\/span><\/p>\n Lavdia e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, Shp\u00ebtimtarit ton\u00eb, qoft\u00eb e pandryshueshme p\u00ebrjet\u00eb!<\/span><\/p>\n ————-<\/span><\/p>\n 1. Murg rus i malit Athos (1866-1938), at\u00eb shpirt\u00ebror i arkimandrit Sofronit; u kanonizua m\u00eb 1987 nga Patriarkana Ekumenike e Konstandinopoj\u00ebs.<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" LUTJA, NJ\u00cb KRIJIM GJITHNJ\u00cb I RI Lutja, p\u00ebrvoj\u00eb e p\u00ebrjet\u00ebsis\u00eb Arkimandrit Sofroni Lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb krijim i pashtersh\u00ebm, q\u00eb gufon gjithmon\u00eb, m\u00eb i lart\u00eb nga \u00e7do art apo shkenc\u00eb tjet\u00ebr. P\u00ebrmes lutjes hyjm\u00eb n\u00eb kungim me Qenien e p\u00ebrjetshme dhe pa fillim. N\u00ebse do ta thoshim ndryshe, lutja \u00ebsht\u00eb jeta e Per\u00ebndis\u00eb, i Vetmi q\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb realisht dhe q\u00eb hyn te ne<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"pagelayer_contact_templates":[],"_pagelayer_content":"","inline_featured_image":false,"fifu_image_url":"","fifu_image_alt":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[112],"tags":[610,609,611],"class_list":["post-5735","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-materiale-shpirterore-d72","tag-lutja","tag-materiale-shpirterore","tag-pervoje-e-perjetesise"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n
Shpesh e n\u00eb m\u00ebnyra t\u00eb ndryshme, ndiejm\u00eb paaft\u00ebsin\u00eb e mendjes son\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u2019u lart\u00ebsuar drejt Atij; ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, do t\u00eb gjendemi n\u00eb kufirin e marr\u00ebzis\u00eb dhe, zem\u00ebrd\u00ebrrmuar, do t\u2019i ekspozojm\u00eb gjendjen ton\u00eb mjerane: \u201cTi m\u00eb ke urdh\u00ebruar t\u00eb t\u00eb dua, dhe e pranoj me t\u00ebr\u00eb qenien time; por nuk gjej forc\u00ebn e k\u00ebsaj dashurie brenda meje… Ti je Dashuri. Eja pra, Ti vet\u00eb dhe bano tek un\u00eb. P\u00ebrmbush brenda meje gjith\u00e7ka q\u00eb Ti na ke urdh\u00ebruar, sepse urdh\u00ebrimi Yt m\u00eb tejkalon pafund\u00ebsisht… Mendja ime lodhet kur p\u00ebrpiqet t\u00eb t\u00eb kuptoj\u00eb. Shpirti im nuk arrin t\u00eb dep\u00ebrtoj\u00eb n\u00eb sekretet e jet\u00ebs Sate… Dua mbi gjith\u00e7ka t\u00eb zbatoj vullnetin T\u00ebnd, por dit\u00ebt e mia rrjedhin n\u00eb kund\u00ebrshti t\u00eb pazgjidhshme… Kam frik\u00eb se mos t\u00eb humbas p\u00ebr shkak t\u00eb mendimeve t\u00eb k\u00ebqija, t\u00eb cilat b\u00ebjn\u00eb fole n\u00eb zemr\u00ebn time, dhe kjo frik\u00eb m\u00eb kryq\u00ebzon… Eja pra, dhe shp\u00ebtom\u00eb, se po mbytem, ashtu si shp\u00ebtove Petron, i cili guxoi t\u00eb vinte t\u00eb t\u00eb takonte mbi uj\u00ebrat e detit\u201d (shih Matth. 14.28,31).<\/span><\/p>\n
Tani, jam i burgosuri i Krishtit, Per\u00ebndis\u00eb tim. Jam i nd\u00ebrgjegjsh\u00ebm se u thirra nga mosqenia n\u00eb qenie; nga natyra e vet njeriu nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb asgj\u00eb. E megjith\u00ebk\u00ebt\u00eb, ne presim nga Per\u00ebndia dhembshuri dhe respekt. Dhe papritur, i T\u00ebr\u00ebfuqishmi na zbulohet n\u00eb p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb e Tij t\u00eb pap\u00ebrshkrueshme. Ky vizion e mall\u00ebngjen shpirtin, e trondit intelektin dhe padashur, gjunj\u00ebzohemi p\u00ebrpara Tij. Por cilado qoft\u00eb aspirata q\u00eb kemi p\u00ebr t\u2019i p\u00ebrngjar\u00eb Atij me p\u00ebrul\u00ebsin\u00eb ton\u00eb, e shikojm\u00eb veten t\u00eb pazot\u00eb p\u00ebr t\u00eb arritur n\u00eb t\u00eb qenit e Tij absolut.<\/span><\/p>\n